Hi Kaye,
I’m very pleased to see someone with Cathar memories posting, and very interested in anything you can recall. As you can tell by searching Cathar or Catharism, we have had a few PL Cathars come through over the years, but most did not stay for long. I believe it may be because they were really intent on re-connecting with other Cathars and recovering the actual doctrines, practices and beliefs of Catharism. As you may have noticed, this site is a heterogenous mixing ground (and cross-roads) for all kinds of folks with all kinds of backgrounds, beliefs, stages of development, etc. From that standpoint, it can offer a lot in terms of variety. However, I suspect that those who have claimed PL Catharism found it a bit off-focus in terms of what they were seeking.
For my part, I would be very interested in a site that connected PL Cathars, but have not found one. There are some fairly good sites that provide as much “history” as is available, but they are primarily based on records from the Inquisition, which I find inherently problematic. At best, I think such records may give some idea of the exoteric aspects of Catharism, but provide little of nothing about the types of esoteric doctrines and beliefs that you mention. Like you, I have found the Neo-Cathar sites and groups I have looked into to be somewhat disappointing. I have no objection to them, and they may be quite positive for those involved, but overall they seem to be a bit of a New Age hodge-podge with “Cathar” flavoring added (like most other attempts to recreate lost belief systems in the modern era).
Consequently, I have hoped that those who dropped by the board in the past might come back, re-connect on this board, and stick with this or some other threads dedicated to the Cathars as a permanent presence on this board and as a way to re-call and re-build what has been lost. However, you are the first PL Cathar I can recall posting here in quite awhile. So, I hope you will stay and become a presence. With time, if a steady Cathar presence can be maintained, it may be that others will gravitate back.
In terms of all time being one, I have heard many ideas along this line over the years. Related ideas come up in theology, mysticism, and even physics. For example, many theologians consider God to be above and outside of time, and able to look down on the entire span of time as a single simultaneously existing whole. Mystics also speak of reaching “timeless” states of being as they seek to transcend ordinary reality and, so to speak, interact with/experience God* at something close to God’s level. So, both of these ideas would go along with what you are talking about. From the physics standpoint, there are so many theories out there that it boggles the mind. However, “time” is often considered to be just another dimension. On all of these, I claim no great knowledge. I think only those who have experienced this state of being can "understand" it, but I do know that there are those who seem to have confirmed this through personal experience.
Cordially,
S&S
PS-- *“God is Light” is one of the “God is” statements of scripture, and may connect to the emphasis on the “Light” you mention. This truth tends to be a very important part of the mystical tradition.
PPS--Like you, I am looking for answers in this area. I have very little in the way of PL memories, and no PL memories in re the Cathars, but I have felt an abiding and deep connection to, and a strong longing for, what they were and represent (which I believe may be quite different from what is represented about them in available "historical" sources).