This is the first time I've ever really attempted any research of a past life or an answer to my weird feelings/memories. From the time I could talk I was an old soul. My nickname was Sage because of the wisdom my two year old self would spout off. I'm going to simplify for clarity. Around age 10 I became phobic of bridges. Specifically driving off of bridges. At some point I had a vivid memory of driving an 80s-early 90s car through a guardrail and off a bridge. As I scanned the car for a way out I remembered seeing an upright car seat empty in the back passenger seat. It was daytime and I don't remember why I went through the guardrail just the panic of trying to get out. I have also had reoccurring vivid dreams for years. I am in a department store looking at newborn boy clothes heavily pregnant laying the clothes across my stomach. The next dream I am in the hospital to give birth. I'm screaming and there is so much blood. I give birth but immediately they take my baby. I always wake up screaming to give my baby back or screaming the name Jonathan. The feeling of loss lingers long after I wake up. This dream has only happened once but I am chasing a young boy through a pasture and we are running away from something. He dunks through a barbed wire fence and I see crows everywhere and think that they will find us as I'm screaming 'jonathan'. In the car accident I feel strongly I had two kids. I always thought I was seeing the future but now I starting to wonder if maybe it has already happened. I want to start research but I'm not sure where to start. I've always had a fascination with the name Calhoun. Not as if I wanted to name my child that or anything but more of a connection to it. Any input would be greatly valued. This has been happening most of my life and continues to this day.