Ehrenbreitstein
Senior Member
I joined this forum in 2004 but only posted a couple of times before I was shipped off to the Army. I decided to re-join recently and want to introduce myself again. My memoir could be pages and pages long, so I'll try to keep it as short as possible.
I remember a life a life in Germany in which I served in WWI and later in WWII.
Most of my life I've had very strong feelings and thoughts about that time period and for a while I had no idea where they came from. When I discovered the possibility of reincarnation I knew instantly what my life was because I had been having many dreams and daydreams about my past life leading up to that.
I've done many regressions over the years and have had many more dreams, visions, and experiences. Recently I decided to do some actual solid research into what I remembered and I discovered with some difficulty that all the facts I had matched up with a person who actually existed and was not made up in my mind (which I'm sure a lot of us fear). I was then able to match up many other facts and details with the file I had based on this person.
It's so hard talking about this in such a straight-forward manner because it's been such a hard journey for me. I live with the burden and weight of my past life on me every day and I often feel myself sinking into depression when remembering the end of my life. I strongly believe people are not meant to remember for a good reason.
That life had such an impact on me that it carried over into this life. I often feel that the person I was then has bled over so much into this life that who I am now is very much who I was then as well. At a young age I would find myself having thoughts, feelings, and reactions to things that felt very foreign to me at the time. I've learned to integrate it since then and I am now a blend of the old and new but am still very much myself from the past.
It's also very hard for me to let go of the past. I miss that time very much and I miss the life I had. I feel very homesick for Germany all the time and have never quite felt American, but always German at heart. I can't relate to what Germany has become now; I miss the Germany I remember before it was destroyed by war. Old photos, videos, and music will bring about such an uncontrollable emotional reaction in me that it can be overwhelming and crippling. I have a hard time reconciling what is said about Germany and that time period today in society and history books versus my recollections of what it was like then. I find myself reminiscing quite often and thinking that if I was asked to do it all over again, I would.
I served in WW1 when I was fresh out of school, although I have almost no memory of that. The only memory of that period is sitting on a fountain at home in a WWI era uniform. I've had no memory of any sort of combat from that time or the front, even though I was a foot soldier. But in movies and photos, the sights of the trenches often makes me physically queasy and uncomfortable. I think what came later in my life, WWII, completely dwarfed everything else in that life.
I worked in banking until the economy collapse and then later in my father's store. When the Nazi party was coming to power I joined them in 1931 for more economic opportunities. They liked recruiting war vets and war vets were drawn to what they were about. From then on I was into it 100%.
I participated in a lot of military exercises and activities. There were always extracurricular events to attend and badges to be gained. I raced in boats on the Rhine, I raced in sports cars, and drove motorcycles. I drove off-road and participated in sporting events.
After the introductory period of being a recruit, I was made an officer because of my veteran status, abilities, and age. When I worked it was to organize and administrate. We attended yearly rallies in Nuremberg and Munich as well as many other events. We often worked with the police to help guard and police.
I remember a life a life in Germany in which I served in WWI and later in WWII.
Most of my life I've had very strong feelings and thoughts about that time period and for a while I had no idea where they came from. When I discovered the possibility of reincarnation I knew instantly what my life was because I had been having many dreams and daydreams about my past life leading up to that.
I've done many regressions over the years and have had many more dreams, visions, and experiences. Recently I decided to do some actual solid research into what I remembered and I discovered with some difficulty that all the facts I had matched up with a person who actually existed and was not made up in my mind (which I'm sure a lot of us fear). I was then able to match up many other facts and details with the file I had based on this person.
It's so hard talking about this in such a straight-forward manner because it's been such a hard journey for me. I live with the burden and weight of my past life on me every day and I often feel myself sinking into depression when remembering the end of my life. I strongly believe people are not meant to remember for a good reason.
That life had such an impact on me that it carried over into this life. I often feel that the person I was then has bled over so much into this life that who I am now is very much who I was then as well. At a young age I would find myself having thoughts, feelings, and reactions to things that felt very foreign to me at the time. I've learned to integrate it since then and I am now a blend of the old and new but am still very much myself from the past.
It's also very hard for me to let go of the past. I miss that time very much and I miss the life I had. I feel very homesick for Germany all the time and have never quite felt American, but always German at heart. I can't relate to what Germany has become now; I miss the Germany I remember before it was destroyed by war. Old photos, videos, and music will bring about such an uncontrollable emotional reaction in me that it can be overwhelming and crippling. I have a hard time reconciling what is said about Germany and that time period today in society and history books versus my recollections of what it was like then. I find myself reminiscing quite often and thinking that if I was asked to do it all over again, I would.
I served in WW1 when I was fresh out of school, although I have almost no memory of that. The only memory of that period is sitting on a fountain at home in a WWI era uniform. I've had no memory of any sort of combat from that time or the front, even though I was a foot soldier. But in movies and photos, the sights of the trenches often makes me physically queasy and uncomfortable. I think what came later in my life, WWII, completely dwarfed everything else in that life.
I worked in banking until the economy collapse and then later in my father's store. When the Nazi party was coming to power I joined them in 1931 for more economic opportunities. They liked recruiting war vets and war vets were drawn to what they were about. From then on I was into it 100%.
I participated in a lot of military exercises and activities. There were always extracurricular events to attend and badges to be gained. I raced in boats on the Rhine, I raced in sports cars, and drove motorcycles. I drove off-road and participated in sporting events.
After the introductory period of being a recruit, I was made an officer because of my veteran status, abilities, and age. When I worked it was to organize and administrate. We attended yearly rallies in Nuremberg and Munich as well as many other events. We often worked with the police to help guard and police.
