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Strange behaviour in childhood

Petya

Petya

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hi everybody!
I am new to this forum and came upon it while looking for more information about past lives.
I had these repetitive panic attacks in my childhood which make me think it might be a fear I carried from my past life.
I remember I was around 4 or 5 years old and every time I was playing in my grandparents' garden and I heard an airplane or a helicopter, I was rushing inside, hiding under the table, all shivering. I was also pleading my grandma to come with me, otherwise " They would bomb us and kill us all".
I don't have this fear anymore, but i remember how frightened i was then. And i can't explain why would I have this fear and why would i be so upset every time I heard an airplane in the skies.
Have anybody of you experienced something like that? And what are the chances it is something I carried with me from a past life?
 
Hello Petya and welcome! :)


Yes, it sounds very likely your childhood fears were stemming from past life experiences. I'm glad you've gotten over them, but are there any countries or decades of the 20th century (before you were born) you feel familiar with? This might give you a clue of the war you had to live through, if you're interested.


There are many members on the forum, who have or have had past life related phobias - also of planes flying overhead. Try using the search engine and typing in for example "phobias" or "bombing" etc. You'll find experiences similar to yours. :thumbsup:


Karoliina
 
Hi Petya and welcome to the forum and I hope you enjoy your time here. I agree with Karoliina that your experiences do sound pastlife related.


Kind Regards


Kay.
 
Hi and welcome! :)


Very interesting behaviour and as Karoliina said, very likely to be past life related.


Does your family or yourself perhaps remember things you said or games you played when you were small that could allude to a possible past life during a war?


:)
 
Hi Petya,


Welcome to the forum :)

Have anybody of you experienced something like that? And what are the chances it is something I carrie dwith me from a past life?
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Yes - I have. I've always had a fear of airplanes flying overhead. The sound is a trigger - for memories of a lifetime I had in Italy, when I died in a bombing. Similarly, thunder and lightning storms can occasionally also be a trigger - the sound, the flashes of light illuminating the sky....very close to bombs dropping. The response to these triggers is - for me - always very emotional. A completely visceral reaction.


It may very well be that the sound is also a trigger for you - have you thought about trying a meditation to get to the root cause? Are you interested in learning more about your past lives?


How does the sound of planes feel to you now? Do you have any specific reaction as an adult?


It's fascinating to me - to see how some fears carry over from life to life. I believe that with an awareness of the issue - you can heal from it. ;)


Ailish
 
It's interesting you mention helicopters triggering this as well. That could narrow down the time span -- I immediately thought of Vietnam, also the conflicts in '70's & '80's Latin America. Of course your age would narrow this down a lot also :o
 
Hello Petya Welcome,


Yes, it would certainly suggest a past life to me, if it happened more than once. I can imagine a child being startled by a helicopter the first time, but if it kept happening I would wonder why.


Are you the right age to have had a past life during the Viet Nam war? Do you remember (or can you try to recall) what the fear was like (without upsetting yourself too much)? You might try closing your eyes, breathing evenly to relax for a little while, then going back to that childhood memory and try to remember as clearly as possible what (exactly) was going through your mind.


You say you thought they were going to 'bomb' you? Any sort of detail at all would be helpful in pinpointing an historical period.
 
Between the the age of 2 and 3 I had recurring nightmares of being imprisoned in a muddy place with barracks where people were burned and there were guards with vicious German shepard dogs. I'd wake up screaming every night.


My parents always said they were concerned for my sanity in that period. Eventually, the nightmares simply stopped.


On my first trip to Europe, in 1976, I and my wife and in-laws drove through Germany. We passed through a district named Bergen where all the little towns had hyphenated names. When we drove through a sleepy village called Bergen-Belsen, I felt freezing cold (even though it was the hottest summer in 500 years). It turned out that the Nazis had a concentration camp there.
 
Hi Petya,


I too had this fear as a child. I was terribly afraid of helicopters. If I heard one in the distance I would run outside and hide under my parent's back porch. Even after it had passed, I would spend all day worrying about when it would return. To this day, I still cringe when I hear a helicopter flying overhead. I was also afraid of airplanes as a child, but not as much. I do believe that fears such as these are probably past life related.


-Jessi
 
Thanks everybody for your interesting thoughts and stories!!


I can see that quite a few from you have experienced the same fear..especially Jessi. The interesting part is indeed that i am not scared from flying with airplanes...I just have this strange feeling when they fly over my head...now it is not a fear anymore but in my childhood..it was a panic attack I got every time I heard a plane or helicopter.


The other interesting part is that I always had very vivid and weird, symbolic dreams. I used to write them down in a book and maybe it is a good idea that I resume this practice.


I remember now that also when I was a child I had a recurring dream. It was not as much a dream as something I called 'trap'. I would be sleeping and then suddenly i would be in this vast, thick, eternal darkness, which also gave me the feeling of something heavy laying over me. Like tons and tons of metal scrap is over me. I would be trapped there and wouldn't be able to wake up. It gave me such a feeling of helplessness, of nothingness and desperation...it is really hard to explain since it was not something I could see..I could only feel it. Every time I woke up, I didn't know where I was..and the feeling of nothingness and desperation was still there..really weird. Have any of you experienced something like that?


I also had other dreams ..more specific ones..but one thing at a time. :-)
 
Petya,


Maybe you were experiencing sleep paralysis? I don't know much about it, but there is some information on it in this thread. I'm sure you'll find more online by googling.


Karoliina
 
I don't know much about sleep paralysis, but what you described it sounds very much like what has been described to me in the past - it's scary :eek: :)


I'm sure you can find more about that by googling, as Karoliina suggested. As far as I understand it isn't related to reincarnation , so I think it's unfortunately 'out of bounds' for this forum ;)


I'm very curious to hear more about your vivids dreams though : angel Are there any of them that you believe are past life related? Perhaps even related to your childhood fear?


:)
 
Hi Petya

I would be sleeping and then suddenly i would be in this vast, thick, eternal darkness, which also gave me the feeling of something heavy laying over me. Like tons and tons of metal scrap is over me. I would be trapped there and wouldn't be able to wake up. It gave me such a feeling of helplessness, of nothingness and desperation...it is really hard to explain since it was not something I could see..I could only feel it. Every time I woke up, I didn't know where I was..and the feeling of nothingness and desperation was still there..really weird.
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It is possible this is a past life memory of your death being buried under rubble after being bombed? Many people experience past life memories in the form of vivid and memorable recurring dreams, particularly from childhood.


It could be 'just' sleep paralysis, of course, but more usually people feel a pressure on their chest and describe it being like a large animal or similar sitting on their chest. They often hear a humming or vibrating noise and are aware of being awake but not able to move which can make them feel a bit panicky but not 'helplessness' or 'nothingness'.


Your experience sounds a little different to me personally. The fact that you thought 'tons and tons of scrap metal' and that it is dark and you can't see is significant I would have thought. This would certainly make sense with the fear of helicopters and so on.


It would be most interesting to see if you could get any more info, like by deliberately meditating on this memory of your recurring dream (but while awake) and see what might come up.
 
I think it might be interesting to mention that some Vietnam Vets have anxiety attacks whenever they hear helicopter rotor blades, even though they viewed choppers as a sign of hope. It was the chopper that carried them into battle; and the chopper that tried to take them out at risk of being shot down.


As a child I always loved planes and saw myself flying them. However, whenever I was on the ground, I would duck behind trees, rocks, or other obstacles. Like them or not, I think that aircraft of any type can represent any number of fears or anxieties. The heart begins to beat uncontrollably, the skin tingles, and there is a rush of energy that is not always pleasant.


At the very least, we may be hard-wired to fear anything coming from the sky, including very large birds. But, we could also have been in a million places where the drone of aircraft represented war and danger, regardless of what side of the gun one was on. So often we think of Vietnam. But, helicopters have been an integral part of war and violence in numerous parts of the world for sixty years.
 
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The helicopters or planes overhead causing fear would seem to mean something bad happened in relation to them. So it seems like the dream is the after affect of the planes/helicopters. I'm just guessing, but could it be that you were buried under rubble for some time and no one found you? I'm sure you were very disoriented and maybe that is why in your dreams you would "all of a sudden" be in that thick darkness.


I would like to say that I wish I could have pulled you out. You are out now though and thats all that matters.
 
Nightrain,


Interesting experience with helicopters..However, mine was different in the sense that I was really afraid they would "bomb"us. I was running inside the house to search shelter and mostly I was hiding under the table. Of course after unsuccessfully trying to convince my grandmother to join me too. :D It was a panicking fear..and indeed as some of you suggested that feeling of darkness and nothingness can be related to that..If I was a victim of bombing and was trapped under the rubble for some time and died there...Can be.


Stellarstarship, thanks hug3.gif
 
It's also quite possible that you just saw a movie about a war on TV once, or perhaps you overheard a conversation about a place being bombed and made too much out of it,or perhaps this fear was triggered in some other way. Little kids pick up on strange things like that, and I see little reason to assume from what you've told us alone that it had to be a past life rather than something in your present life that triggered your fear.
 
Hi Gao, welcome to the forum :)


That is very true and something we all have to take into consideration when we 'remember' past lives. I can clearly remember a past life in the Navy in the early 1800's, but I had to question those memories on account of the fact that I was always fascinated by naval warfare and old wooden warships from a very early age. I read every book I could lay my hands on, and I had to take all of this into consideration. Were my 'memories' real? or were they influenced by all that I'd read and seen in books over the years?


I got my answer in the way that I experienced those 'memories', very similar to how I experienced another past life in which I was a young peasant girl living in a remote region of Ecuador. One of my earliest memories in my present life is of waking up in the night from a terrible nightmare in which I was killed at the foot of an erupting volcano. This nightmare repeated again and again for years, exactly the same every time, and even now I still have it occassionaly. I must have been 2 years old when I first had this nightmare and it wasn't just a dream, it was so much more than that. I was there, back in the moment and in the body of this girl where I could see, hear, smell, and touch everything, vividly. Now yes, you could argue that I saw it all on tv, or that I just happened to glance at a book that my mum was reading, but I very very much doubt it, at 2 years old? Could that kind of image on tv or in the pages of a book really scar me for life? I've seen faces in that past life that I've seen again in my present life, and only recently. I've remembered words and phrases in a language that I've never been exposed to in my present life, nearly all of those words have been verified, and fit in with the context of what I'd remembered.


If you can take all of these things, lump them all together and offer a valid explanation other than reincarnation, then I'll be happy to consider it. But this is something that goes far deeper than mere speculation or assumptions, I KNOW in my heart that I have lived before as these other people, as do many other members who post here. But if I was the only person on this planet to have experienced any of this, I would still know, without any shadow of a doubt, that I've lived before, and for me personally, I find it harder to believe in one life, as in, you're born, you live, you die, and that's the end of it. I guess it all depends on whether you believe there's any purpose to life or the universe that contains it? I am aware that you are visiting from another forum, hence the slight over reaction to your post :tongue: But with all respect to you, I know that there's nothing I can say to convince you that I have lived before, but it doesn't really matter because at this moment in time, I know what I know and nobody can tell me otherwise, but that's just me personally and I have no doubts that you feel likewise. Enjoy the forum :thumbsup: .... oh, and sorry for hijacking your thread Petya :tongue:


Chris :)
 
Hello Petya.


I think that your fear of being bombed from overhead could have been from a past life. I find it interesting that you brought this fear with you into this life. The reason to have a phobia based on a past life trauma is something that I wonder about since I have had something similar.


A memory that I have always had is of drowning when I was a young man, in the Aegean Sea I believe, and it happened a very long time ago. What I find interesting is that I had from childhood to young adulthood an absolute panicked feeling whenever something or even someone touched my feet. It was an unreasonable phobia that provoked an unreasonable response from me. I believe that the panic I felt was from my feet being tangled in the rigging of a sailing vessel that had broken apart and I was sinking into the sea desperately trying to free myself. I stopped trying to free myself and an incredible peace came over me as I looked at the sunlight on the surface of the water and noticed how beautiful it was.


I was able to come to grips with my phobia when I was twenty-one years old and now I am not bothered by that phobia at all - fortunately because my feet seem to always be tangled up in computer cables and electrical wiring.


I wonder why that phobia surfaced in this life or if it had perhaps bothered me in previous lives and I only was able to face that fear and conquer it in this current incarnation. I would like to say that past life fears don't follow us in our cycle of incarnations but I kind of think that there might be quite a few fears and unresolved issues that return with us and that perhaps we have to eventually face them and in doing so, reach a greater understanding about our character and nature. It is very interesting to think about.


I really believe that conquering our fears makes us strong in ways that we don't realize. Gosh, all of a sudden I feel like reading some Castenada.
 
ChrisR said:
Hi Gao, welcome to the forum :)
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Chris :)
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While I don't believe in reincarnation, I'm not going to argue against reincarnation as a whole at the moment. I'm just saying that even if we assume that reincarnation happens, we need to be careful not to assume that anything that could be from a past life is. I think people have generally been rather hasty in this thread to assume a past life explanation without providing a reason to think that such an explanation is more likely than something more mundane in this life. I do appreciate you acknowledging that this is an issue, and it would be nice if this thread had more of that attitude.
 
Hi Gao :)


On the whole, I think most members, and certainly the forum staff, are always careful not to reply to a new member and state "yes, you ARE experiencing a past life memory", because then we, as a forum, are taking responsibility for any past life issues that a new member may have. As Sunniva mentioned in the other thread, after several years of reading through people's experiences and fears and the like, one gets a "feel" for the various signs that could indicate a past life memory. Extreme fear and emotion with no apparent reason are good signs but never conclusive. Again, as Sunniva pointed out, we are here to support, discuss, offer our opinions, and point people towards the resources they need in their own quest to find out about themselves and their past. But as in any forum, you'll always have a cross section of society with their own thoughts and opinions, no two people are the same, and you may find a thread where one very eager member may reply with "yes, it's definately a past life that you are remembering" while another more cautious member may reply with "yes, all the signs point to a possible past life memory" that's life, and I'm sure you experience a similar kind of thing on your own forum. Everybody has their own individual opinion, but at the end of the day, it's up to the member what they take away from their visit here. Being a past life forum, of course we are always going to be more focussed on the evidence FOR reincarnation rather than against it, but we always welcome friendly debate though.


Chris :)
 
Dear Gao,


I agree with you that no one can claim with certainty that what I experienced when I was a little kid was some fear I brought back with me from a past life. The reason why i posted this thread is to hear what other people with similar experiences think.


It is of course possible that I saw something on TV. However, if I got this kind of fear from every single violent image I might had seen on TV back then, I think I would have been in a mental hospital by now.I only remember the emotion...it was horrific and engulfing fear. Every time I heard a plane or a helicopter rumbling in the sky, I thought this was the end for me. So bad it was. Kind of strange for a little kid of 4-5 years of age....


I am open to all possibilities. I do not expect people here to say: "Yes, it definitely was a past-life experience". A healthy discussion with different points of view are always welcome!


Stardis,


thanks for sharing! Unlike you, I only had this fear when I was a small kid. Later on I somehow realised that planes are not going to harm me or my family. And I like your thoughts on conquering fear...sometimes I wonder..when shall we conquer the fear of dying..
 
Hi Petya,


I had panic attacks in my childhood too. I am glad you posted yours! In mine I would see a bullet or bomb shaped object heading straight towards me. With each beat of my heart, it would get closer until it got close enough that I would close my eyes and roll over, only to have it start over again. I was so afraid of the episodes, that I always had to sleep with my Teddy Bear, Willy. Willy brought me comfort.


This kept up until I was fourteen, when I had one last night that was really bad and then it quit.


I was so glad it quit, but I sometimes still wonder what that was all about.
 
Petya said:
Stardis,
thanks for sharing! Unlike you, I only had this fear when I was a small kid. Later on I somehow realised that planes are not going to harm me or my family. And I like your thoughts on conquering fear...sometimes I wonder..when shall we conquer the fear of dying..
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While I don't know if this true, what I believe is that we are spirits who have come into the physical world and have become so completely integrated into a physical form that we are ruled by that physical form's desires and fears. We lose our sense of self as spiritual beings and see everything from the viewpoint of the physical being, forgetting that we are momentarily both a corporeal being and a timeless consciousness. As we become aware of that duality and begin to master the physical emotions by understanding our true nature and our purpose in being here, we allow those fears that belong to the physical world to fall away from us, including the fear of dying.


I am not saying that we become emotionless people but that we are aware of the emotional content of our lives and can both experience our emotions as a participant and as an observer.
 
Hi Petya, it is likely a past life memory or past life emotion that you were experiencing at the time when hearing the noise. I was a terrified child and always crying, and it's because I still felt the emotions that I had in Auschwitz. I feel it may take me several lifetimes to completely heal from that horrible experience but I am well on my way, doing the bulk of it in this life.


Mir
 
I haven't posted anything in this thread in a month. However, the other night I had such a vivid and emotinal dream which might be somehow connected to my strange child behavior.


I dreamt I was in a big house. I don't remeber how it looked like from outside because I was inside. I only know it was very large and I was with a few people inside. One of them was my father but somehow it didn't feel he was my father in my dream. More like a buddy or distant relative...Then suddenly I heard everyone panicking and saying that the destruction of the house will begin very soon.I also remeber that we were too late to run out of the house so we decided to take the shelter beneath the house. I remember going down through a tunnel and reaching living compartments under the ground. Then someone showed me a very small room which obviously belonged to a child. It had a small bed and lots of colourful toys and plaids, which looked like hand made. They were very old becuase the colors have faded away. I instantly recognized it as my room. It felt so nice to see my belongings but at the same time it felt very lonely and sad. In this instant I knew the house has been destroyed and we were under the ruins. I felt so alone and desperate...the feeling of helplessness and oblivion. I remember panicking because we were literally buried alive under the ruins, although in a shelter. I felt so claustrofobic that I hardly could breathe. I was asking if somebody from above knows that we were down here and would come rescue us..Nobody knew for sure. Then somebody said that they will walk me to my room since I can't stay in this room anymore becuase now I was grown up and not a child anymore..Then I woke up.


It all felt so real! And that little child room...it felt so emotional to be there.


Í thought I would share this dream with you since it might have some connection to my childhood fear of airplanes. Although, in my dream I didn't hear a single airplane and I don't remember being bombed. I just knew the house was going to be destroyed and we had to hide down in this sort of shelter.
 
Apart from my Past Life (PL) dreams, I have had my share of nightmares thrown into the mix of dreams I had, but I don't recall being scared of anything, just respectful!


Even though I could swim, I wasn't so much scared of the water, but respectful of it, because somehow I knew that the water could take me out of this life in a "heartbeat" (literally a heartbeat!)


Whether this was brought about drowning in a PL, I can only speculate, but I suspect that it might have been the case.


Fears in this life can be the result of events in a PL, but also events in the present life can also be, for instance, being involved in a bad car accident may set us up to have crippling fears of another accident in the future!


Just the opinions of an old man. :)
 
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