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Maya

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Newbie here, nice to be here. Having spent most of today reading the board, I have learned much.
I never gave much thought to past lives, although I have always believed in reincarnation. I have been following my spiritual quest for several years and have had several "aha" moments along the way, including a wonderful reading with John Edward, and believe my mind and heart are open and ready to delve into my past lives and the lessons they will bring me.

The background: I never had dreams or memories that I would tie to a past life, nothing in childhood or even into adulthood. Three years ago, that changed when I started having a recurring dream, both daydream and while sleeping of a beautiful cove with palm trees and aqua waters. I have always been drawn to the sea and love the water. In this dream (memory?) I am standing on the cliff overlooking the still pool of water, contemplating. Not sure how I know that, but I know that I am giving thought to what is to come. Although I am watching the girl at the cliff from a distance, I know the girl at the cliff is me. I can describe her vividly. I also know that she is connected to a white dolphin, but have never seen the dolphin, I only know that she has been saved by this creature and is connected to it.

All of this seemed nothing more than a vivid beautiful dream until 2 years ago when something about the Caribbean Coast of Mexico caught my eye..it was an tourist advertisment for the area. It touched me so profoundly that I knew I had to go there..and I did. Within three months of seeing that ad, I set out on my visit to the land of the Maya. While most people visit Cancun, I flew in, rented a car and drove south until my heart told me I was where I needed to be. I ended up in a small village called Tulum. This was not a vacation, it was a pilgrimage. Although I was alone in a strange place, a foreign country..I felt as if I had come home and I was at peace.

Over the next two weeks, I visited several of the well known and not so well known Mayan Ruins and spent a vast amount of time walking the endless white sand beaches, meditating as the sun rose each morning. I did alot of snorkeling and exploring the jungle. I found that the Yucatec language of the Maya came easily to me, although it is a very complex and mysterious language. I met a Mayan Shaman who was very helpful to me and counseled me on the history and customs of the Maya, and who allowed me to attend a cenote blessing ceremony, which made me feel blessed and yet very uneasy at the same time. Cenotes, for those not familiar with the Maya, are fresh water wells, usually created by caves when their roofs fall in and they fill with fresh water. The Yucatan has no above ground rivers, they are all underground and flow to the sea, creating the caves and allowing access to the sea to/from the cenotes. The Maya considered the cenote sacred and used them at times for human sacrifice when the Gods required it. It was after this ceremony that I started to think this could be related to a past life, as the feelings that arose in me were very emotional. I was so saddened when I had to board the plane in Cancun to return home that I was in tears. I long to return. This place is on my mind and in my heart every day.

I have been doing self regression for about 2 weeks now, using tapes without much success, after an unsuccessful search for certified regressionists in my area. Having been hypnotised several years ago to quit smoking, I know that I am successful in getting deep enough in my hypnosis, it feels right. Today was the first time I actually had even a flash of anything, yes it was of the girl at the cliff, looking over the water, and I felt extrememly apprehensive about what I was going to see, what was going to happen. I also had a flash of memory where I saw myself climbing the steps of one of the pyramids, which is something only the high priest would have done in Maya culture. At the cliff, I am a girl..but when climbing the steps, I see male feet and my hands appear very masculine. I flashed to a moment of sitting at the alter, with a fire and dense smoke, being hard to breatheImmediately after seeing this quick flash of memory, my whole body jolted like I had been stuck by lightening and I was instantly awake, although somewhat dazed. That has never happened to me before, I am always able to follow the voice on the regression tapes back up to the end of the session and awaken feeling refreshed. I apologize if this post seems scattered, it has been several hours and I still feel rattled and scattered. Does anyone have an explaination of what may have happened to me today and what I should do or not do in response to it?
 
Hi Maya,
Welcome to the forum. There is a list of regressionists in the FAQ section of this forum and you might find one near to you from that list. Is that the list you already checked?
Sounds like maybe you had two past lives in the same place, one as a male and one as a female.

Memories like that would shake me up too. It seems that there is something that wants you to pay attention to it. There must be some reason for you to sort of suddenly start remembering. That's my 2 cents anyway.

Vicky
 
Hello and welcome, Maya.

I flashed to a moment of sitting at the alter, with a fire and dense smoke, being hard to breathe. Immediately after seeing this quick flash of memory, my whole body jolted like I had been stuck by lightening and I was instantly awake, although somewhat dazed.
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It sounds like you are experiencing some pretty intense emotions. Perhaps you instinctively knew that whatever was to come next -- would be difficult to process in its entirety...so the "jolting" was your mind's way of protecting the you now from the memories of the you then.

A good friend of mine experiences rapid jolting of the body when something extremely emotional happens during a meditation. ;)


You may enjoy reading these threads:

Can the soul heal from past life trauma and fear?

How can I learn about my past lives?

What a regression is and what to expect

Deep Memory Process

Have you started a journal to record your experiences and thoughts? Perhaps it may help you to write down everything you are feeling -- leave it and then go back and read it in a few days.

Ailish
 
Hi Maya,

I don’t have any words of wisdom regarding your experience. I just wanted to say that I have been to the Tulum archeological site twice and I also found the Mayan ruins at that site quite inspirational. On the second visit I went swimming at that beautiful little beach that runs between the two cliffs:

Link:http://www.locogringo.com/past_spotlights/aug2002.html

The view of the temples from the ocean was very cool. I could almost feel myself back in time with the people of that community. Chichen Itza is also spectacular. Did you have any desire to go there?

Good luck on your spiritual journey!



Sticks
 
Thanks so much for the insights and inspiration. I have thought that there was something that arose in my present life experience that triggered the past life memories, but I have no idea of what it could be or how to get past the obvious block that I experienced yesterday. My morning routine of deep meditation revealed nothing new this morning, yet I experienced a similar block, nothing as traumatic as before, just couldn't concentrate enough to continue for the full hour that I normally give to morning meditation. I will give extra time to chakra/energy work and have patience, I feel sure with patience, this life will reveal it's self to me. I truly wish I could find a good regressionist to assist me, but oddly enough, no one in my area is able to recommend one.

Sticks-the energy at the Mayan Ruins is amazing. No wonder the local Maya consider them sacred. Chitchen Itza was my first stop in the Ruins visits, and luckily I was able to climb the pyramid, something they are not allowing any longer. The cenote blessing that I attended was done at the sacrifical well there. I went on to spend a night in Merida, but felt no connection at all to the city, although it was a nice place to visit with the colonial aspect and the beautiful churches. Tulum was very inspiring, the backdrop of the Caribbean is truly spectacular. I felt drawn to the Temple of the Frescos there and spent almost an hour just gazing inside at the Mural remnants that are still visable..Muyil just south of Tulum was where I felt the greatest energy and was simply in Awe..I was there early morning and had the place entirely to myself, not another soul to be found. Locogringo is a great site to experience the Riviera Maya and Costa Maya via the web, Kay and Gary have a wealth of info about the area, the customs etc. on their website. Have you seen the latest spotlight article about Chac Mool? Even though this is described as a difficult trek, I am inspired and have added this to my list of places to visit, I am hoping to get the same guide they had and have booked with Sol Caribe for a week in late Sept to return to the area and do some more research. The draw I feel is that strong.

Rio Bec is where I truly felt a connection, it is inland from Xcalak area and quite an adventure just to get to. It is currenly still under excavation and I was able to talk to the archeologists who are there, learn a bit about what they are uncovering. They have time dated this site to 600 bc with the temple construction beginning around 50 bc. Calakmul is also inspiring. I visited both of these with guides from Rio Bec Dreams over a 3 day period. Interestingly enough, they told me that there is quite a female presence in the stela they have uncovered at Calakmul, almost as prominent as that of Cozumel.

I have not yet recognized the temple steps I saw in my regression, so I am thinking I may not have yet visited the "correct sites"..I got a distinct feeling yesterday after giving it some thought that Palenque may be where my memories are centered, at least those that I glimpsed of the alter area before I was rudely booted out of my meditation and back to real time.
 
Wonderful experience you've had Maya. The thing I've found is that when I try to force memories I will either not receive anything, or that what I do get will seem, or prove to be untrue. It's almost as if wishful thinking takes over and a memory or image is tailor made to fit my situation. The fewer expectations the better the results, at least for me.

John
 
Maya,

I am happy you got to see Chitchen Itza. I too was able to climb the El Castillo Pyramid before they suspended the privilege. A difficult climb with one hand on the chain and one holding the running video cam! I would agree with the decision to protect the monument. The stone was being worn away from constant use.

As you know, many decedents of the original Mayans live in the Chitchen Itza area. Many make a living from the tourists. I was fortunate to purchase a number of hand crafted statues similar to the carvings on the temples and walls. The locals followed us all over the site until we bought something or gave them a few pesos. I was so inspired by the children. The living decedents of the great Mayan culture learning to carve the soft limestone in the tradition of their ancestors. The poverty there is very pronounced. When I got back to the States I decided to sponsor a child in Mexico with World Vision. It was very satisfying to be able to give something back.

My first visit to Mexico was in 1994. I stayed in Cancun and made the trip to Tulum on a 2 lane very rough and dangerous road. The divided highway there now is a huge improvement and has opened up the entire Riviera Maya region to development. My last visit was in 2000, staying at Playa Del Carmen.

This area also has another fascinating distinction. The meteorite that destroyed the dinosaurs 65 million years ago impacted on the Northern Yucatan Peninsula leaving the underground/ocean Chicxulub crater 112 miles in diameter that was discovered by the Mexican oil company Pemex in 1978. The center of the crater is located in the village of Puerto Chicxulub. This was also one of my reasons to visit the area. To stand on land that was ground zero for the demise of the dinosaur and the starting point for the eventual evolution of human beings on planet earth!:D


Sticks
 
Sticks, There is much inspiration to be found when you venture to the pueblos outside the tourist areas. The poverty as you said is unbelievable but the spirit of the Mayan people is so strong.

Of late, I have been supporting the little library in Akumal, Hekab Be. They lost their roof in Wilma and had not been able to pay their employees for months..after a sizable fundraising project, they now have a new roof, replenished supplies, and a budget that insures their employees will be paid for quite awhile. With a annual budget of less than most learning centers would have for a month, they are doing wonderful work to ensure that all children have a bright future.

www.hekabbe.com

Yes, no doubt, there is a most amazing spiritual energy in Yucatan Mexico. It is something I hope everyone has a chance to experience firsthand.

Tiltjlp- You are so right..I am trying to quell my curiosity and just let what is supposed to come to me come in it's own time and space. It is difficult at times for me to put aside my ego and let the true message of higher self take center stage. I do question if this is just my "imagination" or if it is a true memory of past life. I am determined to let this progress as it is meant to..not as I wish it to, whether it be days, weeks, months or even years that it all takes to reveal to me the lesson I am to learn. I see you are in Cincinnati..I am in Northern Ky and would love to find a regressionist in our area, but am having no luck at all.
 
Hi Maya!
very interesting quest! I too have felt VERY distinct connections with the Mayans, and while visiting chiten neetza (probably spelled wrong) at the age of 10, had panic attacks from vivid disturbances and the thought of all the death in the area. I've researched a bit, and done some self-regressions into this specific lifetime, and found out a lot about myself from this culture. It's nice to know someone else who is interesting in the Mayan culture. It'd be neat to hear about what you discover more! oh, and welcome to the boards!
Sincerely
~Elese~
 
John- Always good to meet a neighbor! I did check out the listings in the member directory and will be following up with a call to them.

Elese- In hindsight, as I began to put the connection together,I was quite suprized, knowing the rather violent history of the Mayan Culture, that I didnt experience any extremely negative feelings when visiting the area. What I experienced was more of a feeling of actually "getting it"..accepting that this was a very important part of life there, and understanding why sacrifices had to be made in order to provide for the group as a whole rather than the individual. I did get a sense of deja vu when I was atop the castillo, looking out over the jungle..the view felt and looked familiar to me..but at the time, I just assumed that it was because I had seen it in pictures so many times when planning my visit.
 
You're very welcome, John! :)

One shares my last name, so I wonder if I'll be able to get a "family" discount?
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Well, you can always try! :D :laugh: Let us know what happens if you decide to use a regression therapist. I'm always fascinated to hear others stories and experiences. ;)


Ailish
 
Bits and Pieces

A little update..I always arise early, around 4am, but yesterday, I felt the need for a couple hours more sleep and went back to bed. This is very out of the ordinary for me, to crawl back between the sheets after I arise, although I do sometimes do my morning meditation this way. Yesterday was not for meditation, I just wanted to drift back for a few more minutes of rest and it didn't take long to fall asleep. I was dreaming, nothing of interest, (I remember because of the way I awoke) when in the middle of my dream, I felt as if I was sitting in a canoe or small boat and saw a man, native american or perhaps even Mayan at the helm..he was tinkering with something in his lap, I didn't see what it was, but was paying no notice of me at all. This whole scene was viewed by me like I was seeing it through a ripple of water and I actually had the sensation of being at the top of the water, as if I had just surfaced and only my eyes were above water, but I felt as if I was sitting in the boat as it floated across the water. I had no real chance to examine the scenery, the body of water, or anything else in detail as it was another quick flash, and I was awake. Not the jolt I had previously, nothing that intense, and I felt no emotion at what I was seeing, I just woke up, and remembered my dream and this vision. The two felt distinctly different, like the vision had interrupted the dream. I glanced over at the bedside clock and saw that I had been asleep for over an hour and it was indeed time to start my day, but I felt that I could have gone back to sleep and picked up the dream right where I left off.

I am being given these glimpses in small bits and pieces What was interesting to me was that this glimpse was totally spontaneous, no meditation, no self hypnosis, just being in a relaxed dream state. My impulse of course is to wish that I could see more and have more than an instant to examine where I am and what I see, but at the same time I realize I am probably being given what I need at the moment and more will follow when it is time.
 
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