I've been carrying this around for two days and knew I needed to post it here. Have you ever had one of those infinite moments that transcends the here-and-now? That places you in this great creation with a momentary feeling of understanding and awe?
Two nights ago it was my elderly fathers birthday. He and my invalid mom live in a nearby town. We were sitting on the porch after a blistering day of heat. The air was cool and remarkably clear....a very beautiful night. As my mom and I looked at the stars through binoculars my dad recived a call from one of his even older brothers (they say they are as old as dirt). They talked for a long time, like kids. Joking of old people long ago dead, of old times. It was so nice to hear of those days as if they were just yesterday.
They then talked of a dear close brother who will die any day. Their conversation resolved in the loss. I said good night and made the long drive home. I drove slowly as if I didn't really wanna go any where. I thought of my dad and his siblings, I had a vision of their youth, of their closeness and now as they are all on the crossroads of this life, passing on, a sense of the cycle hit me. Strangely enough I was on the long dirt road that takes me to the ranch I live. There is one long sweeping hill that approaches my place...as I drove up it my headlights cut out. They just shut off for a few seconds and came back on.
I had not done anything to cause this and I was a little taken back. But at the same time I have come to accept "signs" like this...especially in moments of deep sirituality, which is what I was feeling. I knew it was some kind of sign. So I stopped. I stopped right on top of the hill. It's very remote there, my ranch and one other are the only ones on it. I shut everthing off and climbed out. AWE. Awe is what I felt as the deep, clear sky enveloped me. The milky way was like a cloud. A hair like crescent moon far on the horizon smiled. Goose bumps were all up and down my body. The only thing I could do was give thanks for such an awesome moment.
I could see the lights from town in the distance and offered a prayer of wellbeing for my parents. And then I turned to the direction my love, my souls other half, lives in the world and felt an even deeper connection to everything. It was as if the breeze that was blowing was carrying her breath to me...I inhaled it deeply. I looked below at the ranch and the blessings of this life...I could do no more than say thanks. After some time lost in thought I slowly meandered down the lane. I could not speak to any one...conversation would have been so petty. Instead I went to bed and fell deeply into another time.
Tinkerman
Two nights ago it was my elderly fathers birthday. He and my invalid mom live in a nearby town. We were sitting on the porch after a blistering day of heat. The air was cool and remarkably clear....a very beautiful night. As my mom and I looked at the stars through binoculars my dad recived a call from one of his even older brothers (they say they are as old as dirt). They talked for a long time, like kids. Joking of old people long ago dead, of old times. It was so nice to hear of those days as if they were just yesterday.
They then talked of a dear close brother who will die any day. Their conversation resolved in the loss. I said good night and made the long drive home. I drove slowly as if I didn't really wanna go any where. I thought of my dad and his siblings, I had a vision of their youth, of their closeness and now as they are all on the crossroads of this life, passing on, a sense of the cycle hit me. Strangely enough I was on the long dirt road that takes me to the ranch I live. There is one long sweeping hill that approaches my place...as I drove up it my headlights cut out. They just shut off for a few seconds and came back on.
I had not done anything to cause this and I was a little taken back. But at the same time I have come to accept "signs" like this...especially in moments of deep sirituality, which is what I was feeling. I knew it was some kind of sign. So I stopped. I stopped right on top of the hill. It's very remote there, my ranch and one other are the only ones on it. I shut everthing off and climbed out. AWE. Awe is what I felt as the deep, clear sky enveloped me. The milky way was like a cloud. A hair like crescent moon far on the horizon smiled. Goose bumps were all up and down my body. The only thing I could do was give thanks for such an awesome moment.
I could see the lights from town in the distance and offered a prayer of wellbeing for my parents. And then I turned to the direction my love, my souls other half, lives in the world and felt an even deeper connection to everything. It was as if the breeze that was blowing was carrying her breath to me...I inhaled it deeply. I looked below at the ranch and the blessings of this life...I could do no more than say thanks. After some time lost in thought I slowly meandered down the lane. I could not speak to any one...conversation would have been so petty. Instead I went to bed and fell deeply into another time.
Tinkerman
