Hi, Soulfriendly.
Thanks for your reply - I did have a professional regression in 2001 (3 years after this girl and I parted ways) - but was not at that time obsessed with her, so did not connect anything
- however, here is something you may find interesting - on her last day in our office, she broke down and started berating me for "getting rid of her" - and clung to me, weeping that she wasn't going to let go of me now.
I had a horrible sense of destiny when this happened - like "I knew this was alwayssupposed to turn out this way"!
At the time, I had no idea what she was talking about - I thought she was leaving because she got another job - until the week after, when one of her female staff indirectly told me she felt she had to move out of the office, due to what I had told people (boastfully) she had tried on with me (i.e. seduction in the office one night, when everyone else had left) -
I also get the feeling she agreed to an arranged marriage in another country (England to USA is a big jump!) to partly get away from her humiliation here.
Now here is my first ever PLR from 2001 -
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I seemed to be in central India several hundred years ago (in this life, I am a UK-born North Indian) - and I was the King's under-cover private detective. I worked pretty much independently of anyone else.
I walked into the King's court, and noticed a pretty foreign military woman (from a country that was subtly trying to take over ours), along with a younger woman who seemed to be her Deputy.
I saw the first woman stealing some sort of precious ornament that belonged to the Palace, and I hid round a pillar watching the two women slip it away - I was amazed they did not see me, as I was quite close to them - but I also suspected they seemed to have deliberately done it for me to see, for some unknown reason.
I went to the King's court to tell him, but he was a buffoon and he flew into a rage, and told me to get out - I stood my ground, and he threw something at me, causing a bloody gash to my eyebrow or temple (I actually have a scar on my left eyebrow from being hit by a swing in this life) - but his Wife (the queen) seemed to trust me and was telling him to listen to me - although I wasn't paying her much attention.
(The Regresser asked if she had romantic feelings for me - I replied that I don't think so - I think she just knows I am genuinely loyal to them - unlike her husband, who is too stupid to realise his friends from his enemies).
I left the court in a huff to prove the foreign woman was the one who stole the object - and saw her smirking at me on the way (her younger Deputy always seemed to be with her) - then the next thing I knew, I was dragged by Guards to the execution grounds, and was falsely accused of stealing the precious ornament - despite me having seen who stole it - and the King ordered my execution.
I was thrown knee-down on to the floor, and my neck put on a wooden neck-shaped block. I was almost beheaded (the first strike on my neck failed to do anything, luckily), due to the politics played by the same woman - who then also "generously" manoeuvred things to get me let off the execution.
The idiot of a King then embraced me as if he had suddenly realised I was a loyal servant - but his convincing was due to the foreign woman "putting in a good word for me".
I was then chucked in a jail cell for a day or so - which I was also let out of "thanks" to the same woman - she visited me in my jail cell, and told me she was arranging for me to be released - but she made it clear to me that in exchange I was never to return to my city - as I was interfering too much in her plans.
I grudgingly had to agree, and was let out - and had no idea where to go, so walked out of the city sadly.
I came across a shallow river of sorts, and was wondering whether to cross it - when I had arrows fired at me - so I jumped in the stream, and swam for my life - as I was swimming away, I could see it was the same woman firing at me - and I was hit by one of the arrows, causing a minor bleeding injury on my arm.
I managed to get to the other side of the river, and faced off with the woman - who stopped firing as it was too far now for the arrows to hit me - and also, I don't think she actually wanted to kill me - and she just kept looking at me - I then gave her a stare, and turned tail and found a road.
As I walked along, I saw a young girl with a cart (possibly attached to a horse or donkey), who kindly gave me a lift.
She dropped me off, and I then found myself in a strange but beautiful city, which I had never been to - but seemed oddly like "my destination" or "home".
I walked into one of the houses, and affectionately greeted a woman who was not pretty like the foreign woman - but was refined and intelligent, and we placed our hands in each other's hands - I sensed back that she was a true friend, although not quite sure if that extended to romantic or marital relations - and somehow she seemed familiar.
At that juncture, I was then brought out of the regression.
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soulfreindly said:
HI Makara
Like Chris I wonder if you have done any regression work around knowing what happened in your past together with this person ?. It might help you to resolve the strong attachment you had to her.
soulfreindly