New here - My past life memories

[merelyme]

Hello friends, so a few things to start off with:

I have never done a past life regression, to be honest I'm quite scared of what I will remember / see... but I am planning on trying to do one soon.

I have always thought life continued after death. I've always just understood that everything is connected, that energy is in everything and I've always thought God is in all of us, that he is energy.

When I was young probably around 8 or 9 a memory popped up in my brain and it was something that felt so incredibly real to me. The memory was me being in a very small room surrounded by photographs. In this memory I understand that I am a photographer and I know the pictures are full of tortured souls and of death. I also know that I am a man, but feminine which has made me believe I was a gay man, but a gay man who had to hide this love for another man (who was fighting in the war). In this memory I am at peace with death. I feel as though this memory is my last memory from that life -- that I killed myself in this room full of photos I had taken. I have no guilt in this memory, only pain and sadness for the lives I photographed.

It is my belief from this memory that I was living in Europe, specifically Germany and that I was photographing the holocaust. One of the most pronounced images from within this room that I remember is of an officer of some kind shooting a child/teen in the head. I should add it is my understanding that I was young in this life when I died mid to late 20s in my guess.

Now you may understand why I am fearful to do a past life regression as I believe there may be a reason this is the only memory I am supposed to remember in this life.

To back up this memory: In my current life I have always had a fascination with WWII but with that fascination has also come great fear. I have a very strong aptitude for photography and I have always felt as though I was a gay man. Although I am a female now.

I also may have had a life between the photographer and my life now. It was a short life, I believe my name may have been Beverly and I killed myself by jumping off a bridge around the age of 12-14. I was living near Toronto, Canada and I believe it would have been sometime in the 1970s. This life is one I don't have much memory of but a personal connection with a family (in this life) who were connected to PL Beverly.

In my current life I have struggled with severe suicidal thoughts and attempted twice. When I was 14 years old (current life) I attempted to hang myself. I blacked out and when I came to (the rope broke and I fell) I had this understanding that I had to fight to live and that there was a reason for my life to continue. I've always thought that perhaps in this life I am supposed to learn from my past lives to live a full life and that is why I have these memories; so I remember to fight my thoughts and live on.

In this life I have been surrounded by suicide while in my teen years. Weeks after my first suicide attempt a friend of mine killed herself by the same way I had attempted. 2 years later another friend of mine killed herself, also by hanging. 2 years after that a friend killed himself by shooting himself in the head.

I can't help but think that these memories and experiences are all connected and that they are not coincidental.

I have attempted to find information on Beverly and the photographer but with no luck. (I have probably been looking in the wrong places). I would love to know your thoughts and opinions on my story, experiences and memories. I have a very strong sense of peace looking back on these lives. Perhaps because I was at peace when deciding to end my life.

I would really like to find more information to confirm my memories and thoughts specifically on the photographer memory, but I'm not sure where to start.

Any tips, advice, and opinions are welcome!
I am so happy I stumbled upon this forum. It is absolutely incredible to find like-minded people who believe in reincarnation. I look forward to connecting with you.

 

[yvettebruneau]

Firstly, welcome to the forum! You'll be able to find all the information and assistance, as well as reassurance, here that you could possibly want.

Secondly, what an interesting record of your knowledge [it didn't feel right calling it a 'story' in these cases]. I am currently trying to place my past self, with only one recognisable PL. Also WWII and Holocaust.

I would suggest doing a regression, but try to go into it 'blank'. I made the mistake of hoping for something before I did my first self-regression, and I was shown what I had wanted to see. I imagined a lot, rather than just allowing visions to materialise. If that makes sense. I led myself. So, names and scenarios that came forward were unreliable. For long enough, I chased a name that I now believe had no connection to the life I was looking for. It might be that there is another life previous, or even between. But, the latest theory I have is the strongest. Names and memories that connect so succinctly.

Rather than poach your thread with talk of myself, I will simply close here with a wish of luck in your venture! And, as stated initially, the forum is a great source of both information and reassurance.

 

[briski]

Welcome to the forum, interesting story like so many remembering WW2. There is plently of knowledge and information here from other people that remember WW2

 

[CanSol]

Welcome,

I too have memories since childhood and untill recently I never did a regression
I started doing them only when something's on the surface but needs a key of sorts to get to it, most of the time things just pop up when I get triggered or just because

Regressions for me don't work unless something's brewing that I know to be PL related but my regressions are hardly ever visual, more like an audiobook, one that tends to repeat things over and over too on occaission

So should you do a (self) regression keep a few things in mind
Youtube has some great self regression vids, they all work but on different people, it's not a one size fits all and you might get lucky with the first vid or have to try various vids to find the one that works, I did
Keep in mind that what you'll experience can be hard to handle, but we're around to help you
Not all memories are visual, you can have a regression where you feel like you're in an audiobook (my regressions are like that 9/10), that's the thought version, feelings sometimes you only get strong emotions (emotions are also a good filter to sort memory from junk) or smells (no, not your neighbor's cooking in this life but could be if it's from a PL memory)
Lastly, log what you remember now (which you just did) and what surfaces

 

[SeekerOfKnowledge]

Welcome to the forum, merelyme, and thank you for sharing your memories.

As others already said, there are audio and video guides for self-regression or you could try meditation.

I wish you luck with finding your past lives. Beverly should have appeared in the local newspapers. Not sure how to access newspaper archives in Canada, but the suicide of a teenage girl definitely would have been mentioned.
As for the war photographer, when searching online you could try different combinations of different key words for online search in both English and German (I can give you a few words in German). Hopefully, some of the images you took survived and can be found somewhere...
war photographer - Kriegsfotograf (older spelling: Kriegsphotograph)
WWII - 2. Weltkrieg or Zweiter Weltkrieg
suicide - Selbstmord
concentration camp - Konzentrationslager
Tell me if you wish more words in German.