I see everyone posted stories (expiriences) here about children remembering their past lifes, and since I started having memories from mine since before I recall, I guess this is the correct place to post it.
I also must say, I share not only to feel this heavyness on my shoulders a bit lighter, but also because if someone here knows anything about my story, perhaps what exact year this happened, or a list of deceased people for the cause my other mother did... I would be really happy.
And so, I have been asking my mom weird things like "When can I go home?", while I was home, since kindergarden.
Along with that, I always had the feeling I had another mom, and right away that I had a past life with that other mother, and that I was (and she, too) a "half-fox" = half human-half fox, this sounds silly now, surely.
At first, I believe mom thought it was my imagination, but she was always open minded. From the start, she always helped me believe in fairies and santa-claus, and after, when my words became something more serious, she supported me and believed me.
It all started to make more sense after I almost drown at swimming class, because no teachers were paying attention, and so it had to be a friend to take me up from the water. The moment I went out, I was really weak, and soon unconscious.
And all of a sudden, the other mother I mentioned previously became like a persistent spirit who I would be able to totally see (not constantly, just sometimes) usually standing, in a miko/shrine maide/ dress, with long black hair and, everytime, she made me feel very comfortable. Actually, I think she didn't have to try because her presence was what was so comfortable, relaxing and lovely.
I would also start remembering more, just details, like being hold in her arms, how the place where we usually were looked, tall grass, smells... things by the lines.
At a certain point (years after) she said something, many times and always the same; that she loved me and was my mother, but that the mother I had now was my mother too, and that she loved me a lot, and I had to love my mother just as much as I loved her. Gotta say, few before, I had been really rude to my mother here, in multiple ocassions.
I think it was more or less the time I told her about the message that she actually took me seriously.
The message-only-conversation, soon became real conversations, but at the same time, as I grew up, I couldn't see her so clearly, eventually being unable and only feeling and smelling a certain scent to burnt. When I talked to her, I would know japanese, which is how I learnt most of it (plus watching anime and classes... that goes later).
It was around this time when I also saw a man, who scared me a lot. He observed me from far. My mother here made me a charm thing so I woud feel safe. Actually, she made many, but with the last one I stopped seeing and feeling him around, so all good.
(tbc because I arrived the word limit)
I also must say, I share not only to feel this heavyness on my shoulders a bit lighter, but also because if someone here knows anything about my story, perhaps what exact year this happened, or a list of deceased people for the cause my other mother did... I would be really happy.
And so, I have been asking my mom weird things like "When can I go home?", while I was home, since kindergarden.
Along with that, I always had the feeling I had another mom, and right away that I had a past life with that other mother, and that I was (and she, too) a "half-fox" = half human-half fox, this sounds silly now, surely.
At first, I believe mom thought it was my imagination, but she was always open minded. From the start, she always helped me believe in fairies and santa-claus, and after, when my words became something more serious, she supported me and believed me.
It all started to make more sense after I almost drown at swimming class, because no teachers were paying attention, and so it had to be a friend to take me up from the water. The moment I went out, I was really weak, and soon unconscious.
And all of a sudden, the other mother I mentioned previously became like a persistent spirit who I would be able to totally see (not constantly, just sometimes) usually standing, in a miko/shrine maide/ dress, with long black hair and, everytime, she made me feel very comfortable. Actually, I think she didn't have to try because her presence was what was so comfortable, relaxing and lovely.
I would also start remembering more, just details, like being hold in her arms, how the place where we usually were looked, tall grass, smells... things by the lines.
At a certain point (years after) she said something, many times and always the same; that she loved me and was my mother, but that the mother I had now was my mother too, and that she loved me a lot, and I had to love my mother just as much as I loved her. Gotta say, few before, I had been really rude to my mother here, in multiple ocassions.
I think it was more or less the time I told her about the message that she actually took me seriously.
The message-only-conversation, soon became real conversations, but at the same time, as I grew up, I couldn't see her so clearly, eventually being unable and only feeling and smelling a certain scent to burnt. When I talked to her, I would know japanese, which is how I learnt most of it (plus watching anime and classes... that goes later).
It was around this time when I also saw a man, who scared me a lot. He observed me from far. My mother here made me a charm thing so I woud feel safe. Actually, she made many, but with the last one I stopped seeing and feeling him around, so all good.
(tbc because I arrived the word limit)
