All of my life I have had a fear of heights. I never had an accident that would have created such a fear. My mother did tell me that from a small child I exhibited this fear. I have no memory of the fear as a small child. As a teenager I had falling dreams--which I read somewhere at the time was a normal occurrence.
One night, in my mid-teens, Mama came to my room and said you have to hear this. She and Daddy were watching Johnny Carson and there was a guest who was talking about past lives. All I remember was Mama saying "You must have died from a fall in a previous life". I don't recall it being odd or weird that this happened, just matter of fact.
Fast forward. . .I started having visions of me (never saw myself, just knew it was me) standing on a precipice and feeling the vertigo and extreme fear as a I was falling asleep. If I close my eyes again too soon, there I am again. I have to become fully awake and then try to fall asleep again.
I still occasionally have these dreams, but rarely. I can while wide awake imagine myself standing on the edge looking down and feel the same sensations. The most weird thing about it all is that the bottom of my feet tingle. It wasn't until I was in my mid-30's or so, that I discovered that my father had the same reaction to heights--the bottoms of his feet would tingle.
I have no other clue as to time or place. Don't know if this is a past life memory, or just a simple fear of falling that has hung on since childhood. All I know is that is does feel like a memory.
I look forward to your comments.
One night, in my mid-teens, Mama came to my room and said you have to hear this. She and Daddy were watching Johnny Carson and there was a guest who was talking about past lives. All I remember was Mama saying "You must have died from a fall in a previous life". I don't recall it being odd or weird that this happened, just matter of fact.
Fast forward. . .I started having visions of me (never saw myself, just knew it was me) standing on a precipice and feeling the vertigo and extreme fear as a I was falling asleep. If I close my eyes again too soon, there I am again. I have to become fully awake and then try to fall asleep again.
I still occasionally have these dreams, but rarely. I can while wide awake imagine myself standing on the edge looking down and feel the same sensations. The most weird thing about it all is that the bottom of my feet tingle. It wasn't until I was in my mid-30's or so, that I discovered that my father had the same reaction to heights--the bottoms of his feet would tingle.
I have no other clue as to time or place. Don't know if this is a past life memory, or just a simple fear of falling that has hung on since childhood. All I know is that is does feel like a memory.
I look forward to your comments.
