Long Overdue: My PL Regression Experience

[Erica]

This has been a long time coming. I had posted back in July that I would be having my first professional PL regression. Between life happening and having so much to think about and sort through since that experience, I just realized again that I never got around to sharing. Be warned though; this could get heavy.

I'll start off by saying it was definitely worth it. The session was very long and furnished a surprising amount of details on my last lifetime, including some I just verified in the last few days through historical records.

The session took me through my lifetime as a man in Germany from when I first joined the SS, through to the end of WWII and a few years after. I relived sitting in an office room talking to a man about "the new administration", coming home and speaking to my wife and children about the changes to come, my coming departure for training, and seeing my wife's uncertainty and hurt that I could never fully understand. And through all of the events that followed, as I experienced my first assignment in Auschwitz I in 1940 counting and distributing items of clothing and towels (later verified through research), onto Majdanek, witnessing - and being involved in cruelty and indescribable images my mind would refuse to fathom, watching my young daughter battle a long illness and eventually die, dealing with poor health (also verified) and unclean living conditions for myself and family, I still could never understand my wife's feelings, or my own.
I experienced a sense of paralysis and numbness through everything I did. Deep down I felt powerless, though I told myself I was making my own decisions. I never fully comprehended life - it was too scary and painful to try. If something felt wrong, I just mentally turned away from it as I continued to mechanically act through each circumstance, whether at home or work.
I've struggled off and on with such feelings for most of my current life, without a direct cause.

I was deeply unhappy and I knew it. Most of all, I was unhappy with myself.

To some extent that changed, temporarily when I finally got out of the camps and onto the front lines in 1944. I fought a retreating battle in a pine forest in Germany, later confirmed to be the battle of the Hürtgenwald, fought between German and American forces, where I was shot in the lower back and shoulder and later sent back to a camp. My despondency started to return, though I would find conditions in that camp (Flossenburg) to be somewhat more livable and in some ways "humane", compared to Majdanek and Auschwitz.

The last events of my life were recalled hazily, being captured, confined to cells and eventually hung. Previous video regressions and nightmares detailed that time more clearly.

I had already heavily suspected for years from earlier memories matching with research that the life I lived was that of Erich Mußfeldt, Oberschaarführer heading crematoriums in Auschwitz and Majdanek, but this regression provided verifiable details which seem to have confirmed it:

1. The timeline and years of events recalled match up with records.

2. His first assignment in Auschwitz was distributing items of clothing to camp personnel (see above).

3. I felt my past self to be in poor health during a time in which I was assigned to Majdanek. Recent research revealed that Mußfeldt was hospitalized for typhus right after his assignment to that camp.

4. Though further verification is needed, evidence points to Mußfeldt having fought in the Hürtgenwald after being transferred to the front lines. He was wounded on 5 February 1945 (after which he was recalled and assigned to Flossenburg), the same day a battle which matches the one I recalled and was wounded in took place.

Even though I've sensed for a long time that I've lived before (possibly many times), as the details came together over the last four years, it was about the last thing I expected to find. But since finding all of this out, I've been able to make sense of more things, both past and present, in my life than I ever could before. And since that regression, I've also begun to really apply the lessons I've needed to learn from such an unforgettable - and admittedly in many respects truly horrible past existence.

For now, I'll leave this off with saying, that probably the biggest lesson I've had to learn is, that the consequences of submitting to something morally wrong, in the end far outweigh the costs of saying no. The hardships, regret, and finally the death I suffered, and that others suffered as a result of my PL's ignorant and stubborn actions, to say the least, have left their mark on this life I now live.

 

[baro-san]

... probably the biggest lesson I've had to learn is, that the consequences of submitting to something morally wrong, in the end far outweigh the costs of saying no. The hardships, regret, and finally the death I suffered, and that others suffered as a result of my PL's ignorant and stubborn actions, to say the least, have left their mark on this life I now live.

Thanks for sharing.

When I had past life regressions, toward that life's ending or just after it, I learned what was that life's lesson. I learned it during that regression, not after it; I asked, and I immediately knew it: one word, or a couple of words.

 

[Erica]

Thanks for sharing.

When I had past life regressions, toward that life's ending or just after it, I learned what was that life's lesson. I learned it during that regression, not after it; I asked, and I immediately knew it: one word, or a couple of words.

That makes sense. Actually, I can relate. I probably didn't make it clear, but it was during the regression that I discovered the lesson I needed to learn. But first it came to me gradually, not so much in words, But in seeing and feeling the effects of that lifetime and my choices through it all. I began to subconsciously connect the dots and see the connection to my life now. Then towards the end it was told to me - by my spirit guide, who had lived and died during WWI - directly what I had to learn from the life I had lived.
But it's been a continuous development. As the months have gone by, more has come to light, more details have been brought into focus, and I have learned more as I've experienced new circumstances that the lessons apply to.

 

[baro-san]

@Erica
Your post caused me to intuitively ponder on good, evil, reincarnation choices (a personality chose to incarnate as Hitler ..?!)

This is a relevant Seth material quote (I think):

https://nowdictation.com/q/book:nome+session:852+Germany+war+jews+idea/

¶ Hitler preached on the great value of social action as opposed to individual action. He turned children into informers against their own parents. He behaved nationalistically, as any minor cult leader does in a smaller context. The Jews believed in martyrdom. (Pause.) Germany became the new Egypt, in which their people were set upon. I do not want to oversimplify here, and certainly I am nowhere justifying the cruelties the Jews encountered in Germany. You do each create your own reality, however (intently), and en masse you create the realities of your nationalities and your countries — so at that time the Germans saw themselves as victors, and the Jews saw themselves as victims.

¶ (Pause at 10:00.) Both reacted as groups, rather than as individuals, generally speaking now. For all of their idealisms, both basically believed in a pessimistic view of the self. It was because Hitler was so convinced of the existence of evil in the individual psyche, that he set up all of his rules and regulations to build up and preserve “Aryan purity.” The Jews’ idea was also a dark one, in which their own rules and regulations were set to preserve the soul’s purity against the forces of evil. And while in the Jewish books [of The Old Testament] Jehovah now and then came through with great majesty to save his chosen people, he also allowed them to suffer great indignities over long periods of time, seeming to save them only at the last moment — and this time, so it seemed, he did not save them at all. What happened?

¶ (Long pause.) Despite himself, and despite his followers, Hitler brought to flower (long pause) a very important idea, and one that changed your history. (Pause.) All of the most morbid of nationalistic fantasies that had been growing for centuries, all of the most grandiose celebrations of war as a nation’s inalienable right to seek domination, focused finally in Hitler’s Germany.

¶ The nation served as an example of what could happen in any country if the most fanatical nationalism was allowed to go unchecked, if the ideas of right were aligned with might, if any nation was justified in contemplating the destruction of others.

¶ You must realize that Hitler believed that any atrocity was justified in the light of what he thought of as the greater good. To some extent or another, many of the ideals he held and advocated had long been accepted in world communities, though they had not been acted upon with such dispatch. The nations of the world saw their own worst tendencies personified in Hitler’s Germany, ready to attack them. The Jews, for various reasons — and again, this is not the full story — the Jews acted as all of the victims of the world, both the Germans and the Jews basically agreeing upon “man’s nefarious nature.” For the first time the modern world realized its vulnerability to political events, and technology and communication accelerated all of war’s dangers. Hitler brought many of man’s most infamous tendencies to the surface. For the first time, again, the species understood that might alone did not mean right, and that in larger terms a world war could have no real victors. Hitler might well have exploded the world’s first atomic bomb.

¶ In a strange fashion, however, Hitler knew that he was doomed from the very beginning, and so did Germany as far as Hitler’s hopes for it were concerned. He yearned for destruction, for in saner moments even he recognized the twisted distortions of his earlier ideals. This meant that he often sabotaged his own efforts, and several important Allied victories were the result of such sabotaging. In the same way (pause), Germany did not have the [atomic] bomb for the same reasons.
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¶ (10:27.) At what expense is “the good” to be achieved — and whose idea of the good is to be the criterion? Man’s pursuit of the good, to some extent now, fathered the Inquisition and the Salem witch hunts. Politically, many today believe that Russia is “the enemy,” and that therefore any means may be taken to destroy that country. Some people within the United States believe fervently that “the establishment” is rotten to the core, and that any means is justified to destroy it. Some people believe that homosexuals and lesbians are “evil,” that somehow they lack the true qualities of humanness [and therefore need not be treated with normal respect]. These are all value judgments involving your ideas of the good.
—The Individual and the Nature of Mass Events; Part Three: Chapter 7: Session 852, May 9, 1979 © 2012 Laurel Davies-Butts