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Lifelong Romanov Obsession

AkumiJinxRose

AkumiJinxRose

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I know that many people have claimed to be the reincarnation of either Anastasia Romanov or one of her immediate family members. I am not claiming to be her, or any of them, because I honestly don't know. I just want to share some of my experiences with like minded people and get some opinions.

My entire life I have been obsessed with the Romanovs. I asked my mom if I talked about them a lot when I was younger, and she said that pretty much since I was able to speak I have talked about them. When I look at photos of them I feel a deep emotional connection. I think of them as my family, more so than my current family. I still cry for them, even though they have been dead almost 100 years. I remember having dreams about them my entire life, always from the point of view of one of the children. Mostly Anastasia. Years ago I had a dream that I was in the palace with them, except I was human and they were all orbs/spirits. This dream was before i had ever seen any pictures of the palace. A year or so later I looked up pictures and the palace in my dreams was eerily similar. My most recent dream was a few month ago (I don't remember dreams very often).

In the dream, I was Anastasiya. I escaped being assassinated with my family, but I hid in a lake beside the palace. I was underwater, and I think the water was representative of the spirit world, the afterlife, whatever you want to call it. Because when I rose from the water, it was 2013. I looked mostly the same, but I was different mentally. I was smarter, more mature. My soul was in a higher state. I was still Anastasia but that was in the back of my mind. I was me, my curent self. I spoke perfect English. (They Romanovs did speak English though. With their father being Russian and their mother German they knew many languages.) I knew, after I rose from the water, that I was in my new life. My soul was still the same but I wasn't completely the same person I was before. However, when I came from the water I was clutching jewels in my hands. When the Romanovs were in captivity they sewed their wealth, in diamonds, rubies, emeralds etc into their clothes in case they could escape and needed money. This is why it was hard for them to be killed, because the bullets wouldn't go through the jewels. Many of the girls were eventually shot in the head. I'm not sure what it represented with me holding the jewels.

I wrote this immediately after I woke up from the dream:
"The hiding could symbolize death. When I ended the past life in my dream, I was in the water below the palace. I came back out of the water, clutching jewels (when the girls were murdered they had jewels sewn into their dresses) that could symbolize my return back to this world, or rebirth. I was the same person, yet different mentally, because I was smarter. My soul was in a higher state. I now spoke better English (the children did speak English though). I saw a boy who represented my ex, who I've been talking to again. I wanted to have sex with him, because Anastasia died a virgin...."

(please no rude comments about that last part.)

I wrote this in a message to someone a few months ago:
"Im just not sure if I am her or not because in a way I don't feel worthy of being the reincarnation of the last grand duchess of Russia. I feel like I should've been reincarnated as someone wealthier, or prettier, or better overall. Omg I just wrote "I" instead of writing she... That was creepy..."

When I was 8 I entered a contest for school. We had to choose who we would invite to dinner, alive or dead. They had to be an historical figure. I chose Anastasia. I wrote an essay about her and drew a 'life size' picture of her (I was 8 so making her my height was only 4 feet tall)

When I was 14 I wrote 'the last Romanov', a song from the view point of one of the Romanovs. I felt like the song was something I needed to do. I haven't finished it yet, because I want to make it perfect for them. I have all of the lyrics written though. Those lyrics haven't changed since I was 14. If anyone wants the lyrics I'll post them, I just thought this post was long enough as it is!

When I was about 14 and I first found out Alexei and Anastasia (or Maria's, scientists aren't sure which daughter it is) remains were in fact found, I cried so much. Looking at the newspaper article, with a little photo of Alexei, I felt as if I knew him, as if someone in my family or one of my close friends had died. Whenever I look at a picture of any or all of them, I feel very strong emotions. In my mind, I call them my family. It just feels right to say that. My first reaction when I saw a picture of Nikolas online was to say 'oh it's papa!'

I posted this as a facebook status in January:
"Needs someone to talk to, but no one understands the level of crazy going on in my head. Recurring lifelong dreams of being a Romanov, and I have just awoken from yet another one. Was it a past life? I cannot explain how else I've been dreaming of this life, since I was at least 4 or 5 years old. What is my obsession with this family? Why do I cry for people who have been dead almost 100 years? Why have I envisioned palaces I've never seen, only to look at pictures of their real palace and discover it looks hauntingly similar to my dreams? Why did I write a song about them when I was only 14? Why, when I was in 4th grade, did I choose Anastasia Romanov, of all people, to create a project on? Can't anyone help me?"

I believe that when you are reincarnated, since your soul remains the same, you carry over certain personality traits. Interests, fears, and behavior can be influenced by repressed past life memories. Here are some I found:

I'm terrified to even touch a gun, because im afraid i will somehow set if off and kill myself or others. And the Romanovs were murdered at gunpoint... could a violent past life death have given me a fear of guns?

I've always obsessively wanted long hair. To me, long hair means beauty. Well, Anastasia's hair was extremely long, until it was cut devastatingly short while in captivity. I'm sure it really upset her to have her long beautiful hair that took years to grow just be cut off suddenly and be left bald. I've always wanted long hair but my hair grows slowly and falls out a lot due to bleach and dye...

I might be so socially awkward now because back then as Anastasia I was raised only surrounded by my family, and home schooled so that could explain why I'm so shy around strangers.

I rely on my parents for everything, such as help scheduling doctors appts and taking care of things. The children probably did the same, especially since they never lived to be independent adults. It's hard for me to try and do things on my own. I'm 20 incase anyone was wondering. But since the Romanovs were always waited on that could explain why it's so hard for me to be independent.

I may be such a hopeless romantic because the children never had boyfriends/girlfriends. They died before they could get married or have children. My whole life I've been obsessed with the thought of getting married and having children. It's all I've ever wanted in life, almost as if I need to make up for my past life ending so soon.


So as I said. I don't know if I was a Romanov in a past life. But it IS kind of weird that I have been obsessed with this family as far as I can remember. This was before I knew what past lives were, I just felt this connection to them that I can't explain. Thank you to anyone who read through all of that :)
 
Your dream is very interesting, especially that part you said ' My soul was still the same but I wasn't completely the same person I was before.' - i think is the point of reincarnation - we are the same souls for eternity but other persons every time we're born.


About Romanov i can say something from my life - when I was a child in cinemas was film 'Anastasia'. I knew that she's dead (and rest of her family too ofcourse) and remember that thought: if she died so long ago, she could reborn and every one of us now could be her and even don't know about it'.
 
I can understand where you're coming from completely. When you feel such a connection with certain things that have nothing to do with your current life.


This is quite an interesting thread, have you considered doing an actual past life regression?
 
From my understanding, the Romanov sisters didn't have their hair cut as a punishment. They were very ill, and that was common practice at the time. It was supposed to "cool" the brain. Ridiculous, I know, but the same thing happened to Beatrix Potter when she suffered from Scarlet Fever.
 
Very interesting post, thanks for sharing. Even if you were not her, you may have been involved with or around the family somehow, considering how you started talking of them from such an early age...
 
Thank you so much everyone for reading and commenting, i really appreciate it! :) One thing I believe is the Seth Material, and without getting into too much detail, he made it sound like different parts of a soul can be reincarnated on earth at the same time. So it is possible that there a 2 or more people with part of the same soul as Anastasia living out there right now. But that may or may not be true, it's just interesting to think about :)


@Nymphaea: I was thinking the same thing about how beautiful and interesting the dream was. I can still see it in my mind for the most part, but some details are fuzzy and I wish I were able to replay it, and show it to others, because it really was a beautiful dream!


I saw the movie as well when I was younger, I actually found a video of myself at about 4 years old getting the vhs for christmas :) i hope that my obsession with them isn't soley because of the movie, however I saw many movies at that age and none of them stuck with me the way that one did, and even when I was young I knew without being told that Anastasia was once a real person, and not just a character like other movie princesses.


@Emikua: I'm glad what I wrote was interesting to you! I was afraid people would get bored reading all of it :P I've tried to on my own, using a youtube video that was about 45 mins long, with a supposedly professional hypnotist speaking through out it. However, I have an extremely difficult time relaxing. I've tried meditating as well and it's just so hard for me to clear my mind, so I'm afraid anything I see will be from my imagination seeing what it wants to see :/ have you done it before?


@BriarRose: oh ok, sorry, i guess the source i found that one was incorrect! but either way, losing all that hair must have been devastating. At least it would be to me.


@Lady2: Thanks, that's a good point! Sometime I wonder about that too, and I hope someday I can find out whether or not I was her, one of her siblings or perhaps just a maid, teacher, cousin etc!
 
AkumiJinxRose said:
One thing I believe is the Seth Material, and without getting into too much detail, he made it sound like different parts of a soul can be reincarnated on earth at the same time. So it is possible that there a 2 or more people with part of the same soul as Anastasia living out there right now. But that may or may not be true, it's just interesting to think about :)
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That's been discussed here recently. Yes, it is something to think about.
 
argonne1918 said:
That's been discussed here recently. Yes, it is something to think about.
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oh really? I just joined this forum so I didn't know that. I didn't search very thoroughly through the forums though lol
 
Feeling


Hey, I've been looking for answers on the net about some past life memories that had stopped during my childhood that have been recently flooding back after the deaths of a lot of my dear ones and I don't know how to say this, but seeing your photo and just looking at your eyes, the first thing that popped into my mind was two names. "Anna" and "Demidova" or something like that.


It may just be me being odd, but that's what I hear when I saw your pic and read your post. Sorry if it's a bother to you or anything.
 
Romanov Dreams


Hello, I'm Ayleen... I've had several dreams and even memories of what I believe would be before I was born. I was never really a believer of reincarnation and all of those fascinating things. Though my dreams and memories showed the contrary.


I told my mother one day that I remember before I was born and I remember my mother giving birth to me. She did not believe and I decided not to insist and thought that perhaps it was an obsession of mine. At the age of 10 at an estimate, I dreamed a palace, with a lake and greenery surrounding it. It was a peaceful beautiful scene... I began to walk towards the palace.. I look around and a little boy called me to play. I walk inside.. I cannot recall which was the entrance and where was it located.. A man was reading, and the room was beautiful, I looked around in tears because it looked and felt familiar, the man had a beard and a mustache with a uniform.. There was a mirror with fine wood architecture, as I looked at myself, I saw a little girl returning the reflection...clear eyes, blonde hair, and I was wearing a navy blue dress with white pantyhose and black shoes, the dress looked from a century ago.. Three girls, and a small boy laughed and invited me with them..and I realized they were my family.


The dream ended and I woke up with tears and a sense of longing. I felt I was missing pieces of information. When I was 15 years old, I had another dream with that same family of a brother, three sisters, and my mother... In the dream my father was desperate, my mother held my hands because I was so afraid..i heard screaming..and the dream ended


Even when I wad awake, memories suddenly came to me in pieces and most of them in fog.. One day I was with my mother on the way to school, and I look out the window, I saw in my mind me trying to run away, so desperately, looking around, and there was some sort of tunnel, and I ran towards to hide..and that is when my memory went blank. Instead I saw bones, everywhere, I screamed inside the car and cried. My mom pulled over and consoled me as best as she could. I felt this was the Romanov family because of the way I remember them and the way I see them in the pictures. I've never looked them up until having that memory not so long ago. As much as I try to remember anything else, everything is in a fog


nothing seems clear and inside of my soul I feel an emptiness like something was stolen away and it is impossible to get back.


As I speak, my friends look at me sometimes in surprise and claim that they heard a Russian accent coming from me. I always thought it was nonsense but up to today, at my 17 years, I cry of empty I feel because I feel this is something I can't change.
 
Welcome to the forum. :) These are very detailed past life memories you have. Do you know what happened to the Romanov's? Much of it was kept secret for about 75 years. The details became available about 10 or 15 years ago after the Soviet Union collapsed. Your details sound very real from what I read about it. Before I give you the links I want to see if you know. I just reread the earlier posts here and they give a little bit of what happened.
 
By the way: The Romanovs were a large family with a plenty of cousins, aunts and so on. Some of these relatives were killed by the Soviets as well.


And there was a vast number of Russian aristocrats, all of them pursued and many of them imprisoned and / or killed ditto.


Where the Tsar and his wife and rumours of surviving children are concerned please inform yourself about the latest discovery of human bones in 2007 in Siberia and the following DNA proofs in 2008.
 
The Tsar, wife, children and a few servants were killed as was around 12 of the extended family and a few more servants.


Around 16 other extended family members managed to escape and get out of Russia.
 
AALANIA17 said:
... I always thought it was nonsense but up to today, at my 17 years, I cry of empty I feel because I feel this is something I can't change.
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Hi Ayleen


Welcome to the forum. Thank you for sharing your story.


Having a good memory seems to go with being able to remember past lives for some reason, so being able to remember your own birth could mean you will be able to remember past lives reasonably easily too.


The dream you had when you were 10 certainly sounds like a past life dream, especially since you recalled things afterwards. Have you ever tried to find out more about it using meditation or something like that? You probably wouldn't find it that difficult and it might make you feel better about things if you knew what happened.
 
Romanov Dreams


Yes, hello again, thank you for reading my message. It means a lot to me. Indeed, recently I remembered just a bit being with servants inside a room, though I cannot recall, I screamed, and that's when my memory faded. The strangest part is that I only remember so little of it and the rest is blank. Anybody has an idea of why?
 
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@nangijala yes thank you, I will search about that, indeed when I was in the car with my mother, I saw bones as if bodies were just thrown there...
 
Romanov Dreams


@tanguerra, no I have not tried meditating to be honest. Is it a way to see what happened? If so how can I do that?
 
Hi Alyeen,


It's normal for memories to come in little 'flashbacks' like this, with only one scene or a moment of time. From seeing things in the movies, we think it would all be like a lovely story, edited and easy to understand, but that is not usually the case. Often it takes a while to put all the pieces together, like an archeologist finding bits of an old pot that make no sense at first.


Having these little 'flashes' is nothing to be afraid of. It will tend to happen a bit more often once things get 'stirred up', but it will subside after a while. Sometimes a memory is trying to come up and you will get a lot of little bits and pieces. Then, nothing for months or even years. That's just how it is!


It's a good idea to start keeping a journal and writing things down. Even if you only have a tiny piece that doesn't seem to make a lot of sense: 'I was in a room with servants, then I screamed' for example, that might make more sense later. Also, once you start writing things down, sometimes more things will come to you. You might like to go back to this at some later time and try to work out why you screamed. Was it a mouse? Were you playing a game? Was it something more serious?


Past life memories, just like any other memories, are always there, they are usually hidden behind the day to day clutter of our everyday lives. But, they're not that hard to recover with some time and patience. To find out more about past lives there are several different techniques. You can do 'self-regression' which is basically just relaxing the mind, clearing your thoughts, and trying to get more details of a memory that you already have - for example this little moment you wrote about above.


Active meditation is one technique for doing this. It's one I have used quite often and it works well for me. The 'Heart Center' is another. Try a few out until you find something that works for you. You can use CDs or Youtube videos to help guide your meditation, which is especially useful for beginners who have not done this kind of thing before. After a while, with some practice, it gets easier just to do it yourself.


Have a look in the FAQ section for lots of suggestions and other people's tips and techniques.
 
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I screamed because they shot my father, my mother, and I tried to escape..but that's when the memory fades away
 
Ah. Ok. Have you tried having a look and see if you can find a uniform that matches what they were wearing? That would be a big clue. Uniforms are very good for pinning down a date and a country where an event occurs. Obviously, since you believe this is Russia, start there. Hats are often very useful things to google.


For instance:


https://www.google.com.au/search?q=romanov+russia+uniforms+hats&safe=strict&espv=2&biw=960&bih=897&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=R-LKVJyXJc-F8gW6nIGYDg&ved=0CAYQ_AUoAQ
 
Those uniforms seem familiar though I cannot specify how the details were. Only the color. Everything happened too fast in the memory. Though thanks
 
Try doing some meditation on it. Sometimes this can help get more details. You can learn to slow the action down so you can get a good look at things, like when you are playing a DVD. You can 'fast forward', rewind or skip the scary bits too if you want. It's easier than you think, but it can take a little bit of practice. I'm sure you would find it fairly easy though from what you say.


Red uniforms are relatively uncommon. Are you sure this was Russia? Judging by what the servants and other people were wearing, can you pin it down to a particular period? It is definitely 1918? This page has some great images. Does anything look familiar?


https://www.pinterest.com/thefrostedrowan/russian-revolution-and-civil-war/
 
@tanguerra thank you for those though I cannot recall, what I could recall was the hat.

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You may have a sister!


Hello. I know this is an old thread, but I've just found it, and I need to tell you something.


I know it sounds mad, but I believe my name was Maria Romanova. In this life, I was born almost exactly one hundred years after the birth of Maria (I was born twenty days earlier, exactly). I have always told my mum I will die when I am nineteen, and when I found out that I did in fact die at nineteen, it felt like I was reunited with myself. I remember, when I was young, waking up and looking around my room for my 'sisters', despite having no sisters living with me. I cry over the thought of what happened to the family and I want nothing more than to tell Alexei that it would be okay, because we'd see each other again (for reasons I don't know, but I can assume I was trying to comfort him before our execution). Much like yourself, I have little confidence with strangers and I am not very independent, despite being sixteen years old. I have always, my entire life, yearned for older siblings and a brother (I have younger sisters who live elsewhere). When my brother was born, I felt a little bit more complete.


I saw your post and felt like I had to tell you. I hope you're happy in this life, Ana.
 
Hello TheLostOne and welcome to the forum! wellllllcome


Thank you for sharing your story with us, it sounds very emotional for you. Have you had these memories long? It is good to hear that the birth of your brother made you feel more complete.


If you feel happy to share I am sure everyone would like to hear more about your memories. :thumbsup: Please feel free to search through the older threads, there is a lot of interesting information there. Enjoy your time here :)
 
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