Modaki
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For my entire life, I've had the closest people to me just leave. It gets lonely and depressing sometimes.
For instance, every time I make a new best friend; they seem to move away or go to another school.
case 1. I was 4 years old and I met my best friend of all time, Jeremy. When I turned about 8, he had to move to Italy. (his dad was military, and he is now in Germany.) I am now going to be 15 in about 10 days and I have only seen him once or twice since he has moved away. However, I do still keep in touch by e-mail, but that was just recently. He is still one of my best friends despide the huge difference in where we live, but it isn't the same if you can't actually talk face to face with your a best friend.
case 2. In 5th grade we were leaving elementary school. My newer good friend, Jocelyn, was going to a different school then me. I've only seen her once since. I am now half way through my first year of high school, and I still miss her friendship.
case 3. In 7th grade I met yet another good friend of mine, Beenish Ahmed, after 7th grade she had to move to Missouri...which isn't that far from where I live, but it is a bit too far to drive. I have talked over the phone to her a couple of times, but I haven't seen her face to face since she left
case 4. In 8th grade my mom and dad got devorced. Other than that, I had made countless new friends. I finally felt I was going to be surrounded by the friends I always wanted. Noel, Emily, Ivan, Evan, Alex, Josh, and others. Then, BOOM, we had to switch schools again. Every single one of them went to another school. I still talk to Noel and Josh a little bit.
As of now: Back in August, my grandfather died. That is what got me into the idea of reincarnation. Me and him were very close. It was almost like I lost my dad, because I was so much closer to my grandfather than my actual father. We got along great, and then, wham....he had a sudden and unexpected death. There was even more of a feeling of lonliness and abandonment. Also, now that I am at my new high school, I still don't have a best friend that I just love being around. I mean, I've always had friends but every time I make a close one, something happens. Now one of my closer friends is talking about getting homeschool.
So the cycle continues.
My question is: Is it possible I could be repaying for something? If so, what kinds of things could it be? I don't know. I can't say I've had any PL memories.
I wish I did though.
Also, I hope this post isn't stupid. xP
EDIT: Also, let me add that I have no brothers and sister either. (i do have a dog.)
For instance, every time I make a new best friend; they seem to move away or go to another school.
case 1. I was 4 years old and I met my best friend of all time, Jeremy. When I turned about 8, he had to move to Italy. (his dad was military, and he is now in Germany.) I am now going to be 15 in about 10 days and I have only seen him once or twice since he has moved away. However, I do still keep in touch by e-mail, but that was just recently. He is still one of my best friends despide the huge difference in where we live, but it isn't the same if you can't actually talk face to face with your a best friend.
case 2. In 5th grade we were leaving elementary school. My newer good friend, Jocelyn, was going to a different school then me. I've only seen her once since. I am now half way through my first year of high school, and I still miss her friendship.
case 3. In 7th grade I met yet another good friend of mine, Beenish Ahmed, after 7th grade she had to move to Missouri...which isn't that far from where I live, but it is a bit too far to drive. I have talked over the phone to her a couple of times, but I haven't seen her face to face since she left
case 4. In 8th grade my mom and dad got devorced. Other than that, I had made countless new friends. I finally felt I was going to be surrounded by the friends I always wanted. Noel, Emily, Ivan, Evan, Alex, Josh, and others. Then, BOOM, we had to switch schools again. Every single one of them went to another school. I still talk to Noel and Josh a little bit.
As of now: Back in August, my grandfather died. That is what got me into the idea of reincarnation. Me and him were very close. It was almost like I lost my dad, because I was so much closer to my grandfather than my actual father. We got along great, and then, wham....he had a sudden and unexpected death. There was even more of a feeling of lonliness and abandonment. Also, now that I am at my new high school, I still don't have a best friend that I just love being around. I mean, I've always had friends but every time I make a close one, something happens. Now one of my closer friends is talking about getting homeschool.
So the cycle continues.
My question is: Is it possible I could be repaying for something? If so, what kinds of things could it be? I don't know. I can't say I've had any PL memories.
Also, I hope this post isn't stupid. xP
EDIT: Also, let me add that I have no brothers and sister either. (i do have a dog.)