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Intense emotions

ColourODarkness

ColourODarkness

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Is it an average thing for people with PL memories to have very intense emotions when it comes to scenes in movies or games where somebody dies, and they meet others in the afterlife.

The emotions I feel aren't necessarily negative, but it always reduces me to tears. The first time I ever felt any of this intense emotion was when I was around 8 and I saw Dragon Heart for the first time. When the dragon died, and turned into dust to go back to the stars I absolutely BAWLED! I was never a very emotional kid, due to my upbringing I never showed what I was feeling and I almost never cried unless I was very genuinely frustrated or upset, so this sudden onslaught of emotion had me pretty freaked out. I have no idea what I was feeling at that moment... It was just this blur of emotion.

Another example is Titanic. I have NEVER cried at the typical scene that others tend to, where she lets go of Jack, that never really set anything off in me, but right at the end, when old Rose dies and she ends up back on the ship with everyone who died, I am in tears every single time.
I have on occasions cried so hard that I start hyperventilating.
But I don't just cry because it's upsetting, I'm HAPPY. I'm so happy that she got to see Jack again, that everyone was there on the ship and they saw it in its former glory. But I'm sad that theoretically they're all stuck there on the ship for the rest of eternity, and in the same moment there's just this feeling of remembering what that's like, and the extreme emotion of how much I miss people or things.

I only thought of this because I had the same thing happen today when I saw the ending of Gladiator (I've never seen the full movie, the ending just happened to be on another show I was watching), all I had to watch was 30 seconds of it and I was instantly in tears with the intense feeling of longing, of missing everything and everyone, I was so happy for him and his family, but I was scared of missing everything I have right now when I finally pass on later on in life...

I think the feeling of missing everything carries over from another life of mine, but I was just wondering if it was a common thing for those of us with strong PL memories to feel such insanely intense emotions when seeing things to do with the afterlife and passing on?~
 
How interesting.


This happened to me when I watched The Notebook, during the final scene. I sobbed for over an hour. Back then I thought it was because I was in a bad relationship and just wanted someone to love me that much.


Now I know that in a recent lifetime I was right next to my beloved soul mate, watching him die of illness after spending years caring for each other. I was so depressed that I allowed myself to die of illness soon after, and I wonder if that deluge of emotion could be related to the hidden memory, instead.


After all, I had watched plenty of romances without crying up to that point.
 
Yes. I think this is very common, even if people don't understand why. I used to get really upset about movies or novels where one person dies and their friend has to go on without them. I know these kinds of stories are meant to be 'tear jerkers' and they are trying to manipulate your emotions, but with me it was always over the top. Other 'tear jerky' things didn't bother me nearly so much.


I didn't know why when I was younger, but later I figured out it was probably all about my friend X. Now that I've worked it out, I find these things less distressing. I might get a lump in my throat now, but I won't start sobbing helplessly!
 
...I only thought of this because I had the same thing happen today when I saw the ending of Gladiator (I've never seen the full movie, the ending just happened to be on another show I was watching), all I had to watch was 30 seconds of it and I was instantly in tears with the intense feeling of longing, of missing everything and everyone, I was so happy for him and his family, but I was scared of missing everything I have right now when I finally pass on later on in life...
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Yep. That one cracks me up too! Every time! It's beautifully done. It is the thought that people are never really separated forever that makes me feel all misty eyed.
 
Too many movies trigger memories for me, but not in a bad or highly emotional way.


• "The Last of the Mohicans" triggered memories of being at the Battle of Wabash. When I first saw it, I realized something was being triggered, but the uniforms appeared all wrong and the battle scene shown in the film was during the day, whereas I remember being ambushed in our camp in the early morning when it was still dark. Later I realized that I was in a battle that was between the US and Indians. There were no British at the battle I fought.


• Anything dealing with B-17 bombers triggers memories. Seeing the movie "Red Tails" did that despite the horrible dialog in the script. My mother told me as a child I was watching the TV series "Twelve O'Clock High" in tears (sometimes I could smell the spent powder and feel the ship shake as it took and dished out damage).


• The movie, "The Kingdom of Heaven" did remind me of being in the Crusades, although the siege I fought, we trying to get into Jerusalem, not defend it. The Crusader movie that really hit home was "Arn the Templar Knight", although I was not a Templar. Something about this film was very different -- it triggered memories whereas others just proved very interesting. The movie "The Warlord" (1965) also did the same, even though this was suppose to be pre-1066AD Norman Knights in Normandy.


• The naval battle scenes from "Ben Hur" evoked strong feelings and still does.


• "Ride With The Devil" and "Little Women" bring strong emotions of my life in the American Civil War. The latter because it reminds me of my home life before the war. The combat scene at the start of "Dances with Wolves" was probable one of the best I have seen because it gave you a glimpse of a human side of the soldiers. What annoys me about Hollywood American Civil War movies: Not everyone in the US Army spoke with mid-western accents. A large number of immigrants made up the ranks.


• The movie "Barry Lydon" for its battle scenes during the 7 Years War. I can watch that over and over again. Very strong feelings from that part of the film. The battle scenes from the movie "Revolution" with Donald Sutherland creates the same reaction.


• Only the movie "Oh What A Lovely War" evokes emotion around WWI. Several scenes were done quite well. Other movies just feel too Hollywood with the odd-ball scripts and dialog.


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Maybe that is why I have always liked Sci-Fi. Rarely do they trigger past life memories.
 
ColourODarkness, I can't believe how much your post relates to me! Yes, a thousand times yes! I have the exact same feelings. I don't usually cry at films, but separation and reunion after death is a subject that has always made me sob since childhood.


I've cried uncontrollably at some truly awful films and had to actually be comforted by people! Vanilla Sky was terrible for me, and What Dreams May Come. The ending of the TV show LOST was absolutely unbearable and I didn't recover for hours and hours. I can't even listen to the Donovan song about the Little Tin Soldier!


"And then one day they met again in a house in the land of Eire


And when the clocks on the wall struck the midnight hour


They jumped into a fire


And in that fire they shall stay


Forever in the day.


For the fire, Lord, is the fire of love,


Just like the peaceful dove. "


You've made me feel so much better with your post, I can't begin to tell you. I thought it was just me! Although, much like tanguerra, since using self-regression I'm able to keep my emotions a little more in check at these times, because I understand what I'm feeling now.
 
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You've made me feel so much better with your post, I can't begin to tell you. I thought it was just me! Although, much like tanguerra, since using self-regression I'm able to keep my emotions a little more in check at these times, because I understand what I'm feeling now.
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Yes. I think this happens a lot. It was bewildering before I knew what was going on. Friends would think I was acting, or had gone insane or something. Now, I find it much easier to handle these sort of things.
 
This will sound crazy, but that's how I always felt about Nirvana's MTV Live & Loud show in December 1993. I have never seen it until a few months ago, and just freaked out three minutes in, could only continue it like a week after I started it. I always reacted very strongly to that show, like I have been there, and something happened right after it (later I found a photo of my (believed) PL that was in the shot by pure accident backstage...). I just avoid Nirvana's live performances as much as possible despite enjoying the band very much (though I was never a fan until very recently). Just to clarify, I'm not at all saying I'm Kurt Cobain! Rather someone who knew him towards the last two years of his life. Sometimes I literally cannot look at his photos or anything. I literally only found out about how he died this year because I was always too scared to actually look him up. I still can't bring myself to search images of him on Google and stuff. A friend a month or so ago randomly sent me a police photo of his arm from the scene of death and it immediately triggered the most excruciating, terrifying panic attack I have ever experienced. I just snapped without reason. I was in deepest anguish that he died. I was extremely scared that I'd never see him again (???). I have never felt this kind of loss in my life. It was literally like my soul had been whisked away into a black hole (how ironic). I couldn't breathe. I don't know how I pulled through. Reality check, I guess. I am also extremely offended by how the media and fashion treat him, like a "public domain cartoon character" as he once reffered to himself. I hate it how people disrespect his basic privacy and objectify and promote him like some trend they won't leave alone. I am deeply offended about it and I tend to rant about it very passionately from time to time. Ugh.


I haven't read any books or watched any documentaries because they tend to be so misinformed and romanticized or just extremely depressing. I've watched a lot of interviews he did though, which give me a weird sense of calm. Hearing him discuss something is almost therapeautic (??????).


I'm actually really shuddering and getting chills everywhere right now, though I am not cold... All the hair on my body is erect. Jesus Christ????!
 
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