I think I may need a soul healer/worker

[ankiana]

Hello
I come here humbly asking for help. I am carrying a lot a pain and trauma.
I feel like I am loosing my mind sometimes.

First:
I have a past life that is haunting me. I had lost someone I loved very much. I have been aware of this almost all my life. I loved her more the life. I have a very strong sense that I may have commited suicide as a result of loosing her.

Second:
From early childhood I keep running into people that I feel a very strong soul connection to. I feel like I have met them before.

Usually when I first run into them I sense Thier presence.
Then I see them look at me like a relative they have not seen in a while. They have smiled at me and even waved. But I have been too scared and freaked out to respond.


The problem arises when I mange to run across them off and on while living my life. It seems as time wears on I get a sense that they start to dislike me.

I don't really go out of my way to run into them. They always seem to have the same interests as me. So everywhere I go, I run into them. I don't have the time or the attention span to be doing this on purpose.

I feel like it is very unfair. I don't want to make any one uncomfortable. I don't want to feel uncomfortable.
I try really hard be as respectful of their space and boundaries as I can.

I am really scared
I don't know how to fix this
Please help. It is hurting me

 

[baro-san]

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Please help. It is hurting me

Maybe you are too intense, and people get uncomfortable. It is difficult to see ourselves with others' eyes, and our imagination can go way off. When you openly and carefully ask, you might get some informative feedback, that even if you found it unfair, at least you can understand. Good luck!