Hi Franklin,
I have struggled my whole life with my spirituality and what felt right and wrong. I was also raised Catholic, and that's not a bad thing, but I struggled with the idea that there must be more than one truth. How can only one group or religion be the right one? Why isn't everyone right? Aren't we all on a journey or different steps on a ladder? Some of us are at the bottom, some are in the middle and some have made it to the top.
As I said before, I was aethist for a few years. If there is a God, How come so many horrible things happen to people? How come the terrible things that happened to me had to happen? Why? Why? Why? Even while I convinced myself of that, I still had feelings of the 'unknown' or spirit world. No, no, that's just my overactive imagination, right?
One day when I was 15, a born again Christian approached me and asked what religion I was. So, I said I was Catholic. (Saying you didn't believe was looking for trouble. So I thought!) He had the nerve to tell me I was going to go to hell because I believed in the Virgin Mary and the only way to heaven was to pray to Jesus. He would pray with me, then and there to save my soul. I could die on the way home and I wouldn't be saved, etc... Remember, Mt. Vesuvius(sp) I mentioned in your 'first timers' post. Well, it went off on him!!! I told him about other cultures and their beliefs, about Native American wisdom, Catholics, Muslims, Buddhists, etc... (Where did I get all that knowledge?) I told him that if he really bothered to take the time to learn about people, he would realize how alike we all are. That we just have different names for everything. I can't remember everything else I said to him, but he told me he would pray for me!
Sorry, I drifted a bit there, but I think it is all related. My belief in reincarnation has changed my life because I do now understand and have a peace within myself that 'everything does happen for a reason.' I can go through the current turmoil in my life and know that 'this too shall pass.' Although, I don't hesitate to say, "What the hell!" I know I have to experience it, to understand it. Then I can graduate and go home. I know my experiences as a whole have made me who I am today. I know that God isn't as cruel as I once thought.
Take care,
Julie
[This message has been edited by JulieZ (edited 03-19-2001).]