Unfinisheds0ng
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Hello, I am in a moment of my life where searching for meaning is necessary. I am new here in this forum. I am from Portugal and recently someone who meant a lot to me passed away. I would like to find out more about karmic relationships. I am trying to figure out a lot of things and understand their meaning. He died with only 36 years old. We were always on and off speaking to each other and meeting throughout three years but we never had the so-called relationship. I fell for him the moment I saw him. And he was attracted to me as well. The thing is I didn't want to take it so seriously. Why? Well,somehow in the beginning, I thought it was just flirt from his side. But we really had chemistry from the start and we saw each other every Sunday. Every Sunday I was anxious to see him. I had this project where he used to work. Time went by and he asked me out. I said yes after half year maybe and when he was about to leave his job for another opportunity. Anyway we went out and I learned he had a really heavy baggage to carry. His story moved me. Since his sad childhood, to the death of his mother to his father and stepmother that abandoned him after some years of really bad parenting and even physical violence by the stepmother. Well we were then apart for a really long time because I had a feeling of doubt with him. I never understood what he wanted from me. I grew apart from him and even started a relationship in the meantime. I moved on. And he did too. He also started a relationship with another woman. But I never really did move on I left the person I was with at the time. And we tried again. He came to me and apologized maybe for his inconstant ways. We started going out again, now talking on the phone. I was having even more intense feelings for him at the time. It didn't seem right for me though. One day he didn't answered me and I explained why and deleted his Facebook account.
Anyway he ended up being run over on his bike. He was hit by a car while a delinquent was running away from the cops. Exactly one week before he was asking me to forgive him for his inconstant behaviour and asked me if I would still want him. I lied and said no. I said he could count on me as a friend but there would be no way for me to keep on dealing with his emotional tornado. Well I really am devastated. I feel like I've met this man before. We had a story. I am almost 100% sure. It broke me apart to have this story full of interruptions interrupted by this tragic ending. I need to read more about karmic relationships. It must be it right? I've been reading Brian Weiss books, and now I want to know more. Would you recommend any books on the subject? I am also thinking of making a past life regression.
Anyway he ended up being run over on his bike. He was hit by a car while a delinquent was running away from the cops. Exactly one week before he was asking me to forgive him for his inconstant behaviour and asked me if I would still want him. I lied and said no. I said he could count on me as a friend but there would be no way for me to keep on dealing with his emotional tornado. Well I really am devastated. I feel like I've met this man before. We had a story. I am almost 100% sure. It broke me apart to have this story full of interruptions interrupted by this tragic ending. I need to read more about karmic relationships. It must be it right? I've been reading Brian Weiss books, and now I want to know more. Would you recommend any books on the subject? I am also thinking of making a past life regression.
