Hello

[India Branca]

Hello, I thought I would introduce myself.

I am a female, and was born on october of 1988, in Manaus (Amazon -Brazil), and can recall having philosophical thoughts from an early age. "Why am I here, on this body?" "Why am I me?".

I also recall having this sense of me having been a man before while thinking those things, my 5 year old self didn't feel like I should be a man at the moment, there was just this feeling that I was a man a while ago, and it felt natural.

My maternal grandmother told me that, when I was young, I once asked her about my "other mother". I always felt like I had two mothers: my mum and my grandma, so she replied she was working. And I, in turn, said: "No, not that one, the one that lives far away".

I was always incredibly drawn to the UK, specially England. Also Germany, but lesser, when I was 6 yo or so I decided that, someday, I would live in the UK, or in Germany.

My path took me to Germany, where I have been living for 5 years. And while I love it here, I still feel this pull towards the UK. If I wasn't married to a german and we had our lives here, I would move to England or Scotland in the blink of an eye.

In one of my trips to London, I went to a session to be regressed to a past life. It was really hard to undergo hypnosis, even though I was more than willing.

I did have a vision of myself on a field, not being able to see myself, but knowing I was a man, in Germany, probably around 100 years ago. I was directed to go to my home, which was in a nearby village, I entered my house and found my wife in the kitchen, cooking me lunch. She was blonde, and beautiful, but I did not discover either her name or mine.

That was it, and I still don't know if I really saw it or if, by being frustrated at not being regressed, I willed myself to imagine it, as I felt way more conscious than I thought one should be while hypnotised.

I would love to find out more about my past lives, and I have no dreams of grandeur of having been someone famous in the past, really. I just would love to connect with my soul on a deeper level, being allowed to take a peek at who I was before, as a way of figuring out who I am supposed to be.

I also thought I should add that my grandparent's on my father side were german, which is a reasonable explanation as to why I have a connection with Germany, but I have no relatives from the UK, and can't find any reasonable explanation as to why I feel so drawn to it, why it feels like home.

My username means "white indian" in Portuguese, which is what my maternal grandfather used to call me.

Any tips as to what my next step should be to achieve my goal of finding out more about my past lives?

Thank you for your time, and sorry if this was too long.

EDIT: I forgot to mention something that sounds kind of silly, but may be important. I always felt like I should have been a twin, I used to make my mother buy two of the same Barbie or two of the same comic book on occasion, so my twin could have the other one... I had an imaginary friend that was my identical twin throughout my childhood.

I can't explain it, really. But even today I sometimes feel this need to buy two of the same thing, even though I outgrew my imaginary twin when I was around 10. Maybe I had a twin in a pst life and we had a strong bond, maybe I was supposed to have one in this lifetime, who knows.

 

[SeaAndSky]

Hi India,


Welcome! I am also fairly new here, but I can say that your experiences sound fairly typical of a lot of experiences that I have read on this board. There are some who seem to have fairly phenomenal PL memory, others merely fragments, and still others are at the stage where they are trying to figure out why they have a strange sense of déjà vu or other things in their lives that neither heredity nor environment can seem to account for. This is particularly true in regards to aspects of themselves that seem to also be innate, as evidenced by the fact that they have memories of these things going back to earliest childhood. Likewise, just as there is a range in terms of ability to remember, there also seems to be a range in terms of responsiveness to different techniques used in this field to access PL memories. And, finally, PL memory also seems in many cases to be associated with other phenomena in the “psychic” field. Overall, the whole area seems—for many--to be associated with a broader psychic awakening.


Cordially,


SeaAndSky


PS--your post may get moved to the "Past Life Memory" thread. These two threads seems closely related to me, but your post seems more closely related to the general subject matter on that thread.

 

[argonne1918]

Welcome to the forum. The first time you try a regression is often that way.


It sounds like you did have a twin. You will run into your twin again someday, either in this life or another lifetime. Children who meet a new friend and are then inseparable are an indication they were identical twins in a past life.


Have you tried doing a self regression using either a CD or video? You can find recommendations by people here in the forum. There are also regression videos on YouTube. Some people have had success with the Brian Weiss video on YouTube. Start keeping a journal and write everything down.

 

[tanguerra]

Hi India Branca


Welcome to the forum.


Yes. It certainly sounds like the fairly typical sort of past life inklings. Many people talk about feeling drawn to a country they've never been to, and remembering other families when they were children. I also wonder if 'imaginary friends' that children have are actually spirit guides or the like rather than just imagination.

Any tips as to what my next step should be to achieve my goal of finding out more about my past lives?

Have you had a look in the FAQ section? There is plenty of information there about how to find out more about past life memories and the answers to a lot of other questions too.


If you found it hard to 'go under' while being regressed, don't worry too much. Sometimes it just takes a bit of practice to learn how to focus your attention. Many people find it hard to concentrate as we are so used to splitting our awareness and being overloaded with sensory inputs these days.


Being regressed is not like in the movies where you go unconscious and there is spooky music playing, and spiral visual effects, or whatever. It's more like entering a slightly different state of mind, shifting your focus from the day-to-day to your stored memories, which are always there, but are blotted out by daily life. It's a bit like feeling half asleep, but still awake.

 

[India Branca]

@Sea and Sky - Thank you for taking the time to reply and for welcoming me!


I was confused as to which section I should have posted, even though I read the posting guidelines, I hope to find my way around soon enough.


@Argonne 1918 - Thank you for replying! I have had a few really close female friends in different times of my life, but I am quite sure none of them were my twin, even though I always seemed to search for her in each one of them.


I had a friend that resembled my physically, and we used to call each other "twin". Our friendship naturally came to it's end, but I am sure she wasn't my real twin, just someone that allowed to have a physical twin of some sorts for a while, confirming that feeling I always had that this is what I was supposed to have.


Today (before anybody had replied to this thread) I watched this video on youtube:

 

[argonne1918]

@Sea and Sky@Argonne 1918Would you mind sending me the link to his video on youtube? I could not find a complete regression by him there.

Also look at the video archive section here in the forum. There are a lot of interesting videos there.

 

[cloud potato]

Hello India Branca,


Although I don't have a specific answer for you I wanted to say hello and welcome you to the forum. You've found a wonderful place from stories to tips on how to discover your own past lives and exploration in the realms of philosophical and paranormal. There's a great group of people here and it's great to have you. I look forward in reading any more discoveries you might make from this point on and wish you the very best.


wellllllcome

 

[beadtrader]

India, I too, am drawn to the UK. I had a hypnotic regression a number of years ago and saw myself in a life in Cheltenham, England and saw several details from then. My mom this time around was my girlfriend then, my name was Alex, and I was hit by a meat cart(?) and died as a result of the accident. In about 1992 my mom and I went to England (my parents were both US citizens but I was born there, again, when my dad was stationed there with the US Air Force). I felt SOOO at home, I'd come home again and it felt so good! Its amazing how those feelings last for so long.