****, forum cut half of my post.
*Sigh* Let we try again,.
- there were 3 other existences after that. I remember two explorers in a tropical jungle, which looked like the Amazon rainforest. they were surrounded by hostile Indios. I believe they were killed by them. they dressed just like the explorers of the nineteenth century. however, while the others were in the first person, I have seen these in the third person. Was I really there? or was my soul scrutinizing a historical event? or was I one of the Indios? I have not the foggiest idea. but I feel a very strong connection with the figure of percy fawcett, who disappeared in brazil in the mato grosso of 1926. if existence as a noble has taught me to appreciate the finer things in life, that other should have taught me to go beyond prejudices and appearances and to develop the eager desire to know and learn everything about any subject I have, in addition to the deep interest in other civilizations and cultures that I have, combined with a scientific interest.
- the next existence was not happy and did not last long. I remember a gray city, an unidentified metropolis. I remember being a boy who complained about the place and the people about him and that he smoked. I had health problems due to the habit and my mother took me to a clinic to do some checks. I don't remember anything else, but in that life I was a rebel and I didn't have a good temper.
- in the following flash I remember the living room of a house with a garden and an old-fashioned car, the electric ones that were used in the 40s-. I was looking at the reflection of the sun on the car. I was with my mother. I was a child of a few years of life, maybe 5 I don't know. I said words that sounded like "mom, the sun is getting big" or "red" then I remember that the light emitted a terrible flash and that we were literally invaded by the flames of an explosion that enveloped everything, with a deafening roar., we screamed and I felt a terrible burning. I tried to escape but it was like swimming in fire and a moment later I was swallowed by the darkness. the only historical event corresponding to this is the nuclear explosion.
I suppose it was nagasaki, because the arboreal landscape was more suited to nagasaki than hiroshima. among other things, the gulf of nagasaki is very similar in appearance to the gulf of cagliari, where I live now, in sardinia. curious coincidence. I recognized some place or landscape line by seeing vintage photos of nagasaki before the explosion and google map. but the place has changed completely and any attempts to remember names and places following the reconstruction are gone. Interesting feature is that despite being a Japanese city Nagasaki was a Christian and Catholic city, and had a large church. in this existence I lived in a Catholic environment and went to school from the nuns to elementary school. and i also have a congenital disease called enhele danloss syndrome, which affects the connective tissue making bones, muscles and blood vessels very fragile, so i must always be careful of physical trauma and not overexertion. and here comes the supernatural part of the story. because, between the explosion and this life,
I remember being in a large dark space where shining globes were floating and where there was a strange "music". the effect similar to the "3d star field" effect. my interlocutor was not seen but I spoke in an incredibly calm and loving voice that asked me questions about the kind of life I wanted and I answered him "I want a peaceful existence where I can have fun with games and have friends". and then I remember a flash of uterine life in my mother's womb, where I saw blurry dark pink silhouettes and felt her heartbeat and a lot of her warmth. and then I found myself crying in her crib at night while the TV was on and she got out of bed to see what I needed. all these memories have always accompanied me and I realized I had them when I was 4 years old.
I have always refrained from talking to people about it so as not to be taken for mad or sent to a psychiatrist. but having found this forum 2 years ago,
I decided I wanted to deepen the matter, even after hearing a song that woke me up a lot of memories of "Byzantine" life and that sent me into an identity crisis for a whole year. among other things in the Byzantine era I also found the mosaic of a guy who is my double standing out like a drop of water ...
(Saint Demetrius of Thessalonica. martyr, pretty strange coincidende that i named Demetrius one of the planets of my tales, when i created into 1999...)
ando also i have a strenght connection with greek alphabet, my face appearence have some greek trait and i love greek mithology.
I have always felt like an old and very ancient soul.
About my current life: well it was okay until the age of 14 years, then i had horrible experiences that destroy all my past. (with first saturn opposition,lol)
i have few friends, mostly with web.
i past mostly of time to writing, playing videogames, studying and chatting and taking caring of my old parents. (also if me too need caregiving).
i dislike sex and money and material things and i love to study spiritual and phylosifical stuffs, rater than materialistic science.
on past i trust much of science, but science atheistic vision of life not make me happy, is a very reductive approach of existance, i guess.
I wish you all well and good to all of you. Don't feel sorry for past lives. They may be useful to better know ourselves and the ways of our existence, but we are here now and this is the life that has been given to us. I suppose this is Christ's promised resurrection of the dead. Love your lives and take care of yourself and others. I wish you all the best.
ever closer to God, the Source or call it whatever you like.
