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Glimpses into my previous life

Terra

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Hello there, everyone. Before I begin posting aforementioned glimpses, I'd just like to re-introduce myself. I've been there some four five years ago, then left due to some personal problems, now I'm back and ready to share some details of my previous life that have come up during various self-regressions. I've been focussing on it the most, since one of the biggest problems I'm facing now is very closely related to that life.

Since so far I only have random glimpses, I will not attempt to make a flowing account of it.

- I was born in 1951. I don't remember how the exact year came to my mind, but sometime later I heard She Loves You by The Beatles and vividly saw myself dancing and singing along with a girl, who I figured was my sister (she never came up in any of my regressions, though). I then thought to myself how old I was then, and the answer that appeared in my mind was 12. I was truly amazed when I checked online and found out that this song was indeed released in 1963.

- My hometown was some tiny one in Utah. The state came up in my most recent regression and I know it can also be intepreted as being otherwise important to me, maybe I lived there later on. I do know I was raised in a farm far off from a town, and I can vividly see the interior of the house.

- This flashback is again from the recent regression. In it I am standing outside a small groceries store of some sort with sweets or something of the 'treat for yourself' kind of food. I'm quite sure it was on my way home after school and there was an air of loneliness about that memory, which I think extended wider than that just very moment. Perhaps I wasn't that social at school.

I did some research on random Utah towns there and the street I saw looks something like this Main Street of Panguitch town does.
https://www.pinterest.com/pin/573294227536726792/
The street where I am looks rather wide for a tiny town, just as this one is, there were similar buildings like in those photos, most of which were not exactly in the best shape.

- I tend to be a bit sceptical, so I take this flashback with a grain of salt, since it can be viewed as a must of anything to do with this era. I believe I hitchiked to Woodstock, but then again the actual memory of being there has never come up. What I know that is that I did leave home still very young, probably right after school, and my parents are never there in other flashbacks. In this recent one I saw that my father gave me a lift to somewhere from where I hitchiked further. The memory was very fleeting, and there was a definite feel of mutual disappointment and distance.

- I don't know where it lies chronologically but my first kiss was with a jet black-haired hippy, and while her face remains a blur now or adopts a look of a certain person and I can vividly see her mocking smile. I guess I was bad.

- There was the woman with honey-coloured hair (that is an unusual way to describe it in my language, nor have I heard it used much in English, so it puzzles me), who was extremely important to me. Whenever I think of her, I get an overwhelming sense that I have to protect her, even spoil her, which makes it all even more interesting that I feel the same way about one of my closest friends in this life. I'm not sure about it now, but I wouldn't be surprised if both these women are indeed one and the same. When I think of that life I get a feeling that I failed so bad, that I let down that very woman in a way I had never thought I could. In one of my regressions I had a "memory" of her and I getting married but now I'm quite sure this didn't happen and it was just a wishful fantasy of me back then. Now I catch myself acting in a way that it's more fitting for a significant other acting towards his/her girlfriend rather than towards a straight friend of the same sex. I'm insanely romantic, I'm possesive and jealous, etc. In my opinion, this definitely stems from that past life when I screwed up so badly.

- When in regression I was asked to go to the proudest moment of my life, I just got several random images of me and the woman with honey-coloured hair, just spending time together.

- I was asked of my occupation, and I saw working at some meat company, something with packing it. It might have been temporary, but my intuition tells me that I never made it further than this.

- As for how that life ended, I always get a feeling that it has something to do with cars, like a car crash. One song is a powerful trigger, and whenever I listen to it, I get a vivid image of dark, rainy road. I checked and there's nothing like that in the video of the song, nor I remember myself ever listening to that song during rainstorm while in a car in this life. The only problem I see with it connecting directly to past life is that it was released in 1987, but I don't know which month. That was when I was born, in April.
 
Hiya Terra and welcome back :)


Thank you for sharing your past life glimpses - they are very interesting.


I think the song was very interesting. I know there is a thread somewhere around here about how music can serve as triggers, but I can't find it...I'll add it when I find it :)


Anyway, which song is it? Would it be possible that it's not so much the song as the artists voice (perhaps an earlier record) or the lyrics that triggers the memory? Which year do you think you died?


:)
 
Very interesting Terra, thanks for sharing and welcome back to the forum - :)


It certainly sounds like the girl with the honey colored hair could be your friend in your present life doesn't it? Have you told her about your regressions and feelings? I wonder what she would make of it all, even if she is sceptical, she might have certain feelings that she can't explain. On the other hand, she may even agree to a shared regression with you?


Anyway it's good that you've managed to identify some of the past life issues that affect you now, and I hope that you can work through them, but please keep us updated if you get any further.


Chris - :)
 
Sunniva said:
Hiya Terra and welcome back :)
Anyway, which song is it? Would it be possible that it's not so much the song as the artists voice (perhaps an earlier record) or the lyrics that triggers the memory? Which year do you think you died?


:)
I've never thought that it could be artist's voice or lyrics. It's certainly possible. The song is Carrie by Swedish band called Europe. I checked more thoroughly when the song was released, and appearantly it was already in an album released in May 1986, which was a huge success in USA. As a single it was released internationally sometime later, January 1987. So I guess it's possible too that the song is indeed a direct trigger. As for my death year, I get a hunch that it was late 1986, early 1987.
 
ChrisR said:
Very interesting Terra, thanks for sharing and welcome back to the forum - :)
It certainly sounds like the girl with the honey colored hair could be your friend in your present life doesn't it? Have you told her about your regressions and feelings? I wonder what she would make of it all, even if she is sceptical, she might have certain feelings that she can't explain. On the other hand, she may even agree to a shared regression with you?


Chris - :)
I haven't mentioned anything about it to her. To be honest I'm scared to do that. I get a feeling that my jealousy and clinginess so to speak could have been noticed by her, and I'd rather not complicate matters further, at least not for now. While she might not be sceptical, I'm quite sure it would put a strain on our friendship. Besides, sometimes I wonder if I'm making this past life related, when it isn't. I might be in love with her, but that might not be linked with the woman in my previous life. Just the same kind of feelings.


I forgot to mention that in one of my flashbacks I saw her leaving, which got me hyperventilating. I don't know when it happened and whether she ever came back. My friend was born in this life earlier than me, so if that means that she'd gone before me then, I wonder if it has anything to do with me feeling that I let her down so much.


Another detail I forgot to mention is the name that keeps popping up - Jackie Miller. I don't know whether it's short for Jacqueline/Jacquelyn or a full female name, it could be a male name too, maybe a nickname for Jack. It does sound very familiar, but I can associate it with any specific feelings, at least none that I can identify.


Also the year 1976 seems to be of special significance. What is it, again I don't know. Just the combination of numbers are always at the back on my mind.


Returning to music, which I definitely find a very good trigger when it comes to this life, another song brings up images that don't relate to this life. Baby, I Love Your Way by Peter Frampton makes me literally feel as if it was in a middle of summer, with the sunshine, heat. Florida and Jamaica (it varies) for some reason pops up in my mind, perhaps a vacation spot? Again, I don't have exact date of its first release, because it had been on two albums. The first one was finished in February 1975, the second one released in January 1976. I can't be sure but I'm guessing it was already on the radio and whatnot before summer in both cases, so it's interesting that I associate it specifically with this season.
 
Welcome back Terra :) Wow you are able to see alot of connections stemming from a past life. That's great! I would only say something to her if you feel comfortable with it. Otherwise, it may just be something that you can be aware of and grow from on your own. The memories may be coming to you for your own personal growth. Keep us posted! :thumbsup:
 
Thanks for sharing, Terra, it's all very interesting! :thumbsup:


I loved Europe (the band) in the 1980's. :D


Karoliina
 
Hi Terra, nice to meet you! :)


Thanks for sharing all this - there's a lot of feeling in the flashbacks you mention, and I love the way you associate those remembered moments and feelings to songs!


I think you have a lot to work through there. As you say, your feelings for your friend may or may not be related to the girl with honey coloured hair in your past. I think in time you will know - for me, a time came when there was no room for doubts anymore. :rolleyes:

Terra said:
When I think of that life I get a feeling that I failed so bad, that I let down that very woman in a way I had never thought I could. In one of my regressions I had a "memory" of her and I getting married but now I'm quite sure this didn't happen and it was just a wishful fantasy of me back then.
May I ask why you are so sure of this?


I hope to see more of you around here in the future! :thumbsup:
 
Of course, I can't be sure. It's an inaccurate choice of words, more or less, but somehow I do get a feeling that we didn't quite make it to getting married and if we did it was far from a successful marriage. Another reason I doubt that particular flashback (if that's what it was) is because it came to me during my one of the first regressions, which contained other memories (hitchiking to Woodstock included) that I fear might not have been genuine.
 
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