Does Anyone Else Have This Problem?

[Inanna]

I have one particular pastlife memory that is extremely painful for me.
I was in a relationship with my Twin-Soulmate or Twin-Flame in a life in the 1800's.in which he was already married and married me making me his concubine. It caused me distress in a way unimaginable. At the end of our union I was about 6wks with his child. I was raped, and he accused me of "liking and loving it". He threw me out of the house, and I almost starved too death while trying to survive and raise my son. In 1864 I was again attacked, but by 4 men....My son was in the civil war at the time. In my weakened health I died of pnuemonia.

Thats why I chose to not be with my Twin Soul in this life.
Which leads me to the question for anyone to answer...
I get so angered at this memory sometimes, so hurt often by it that I break down into tears like now!
Does anyone else have this difficulty?

 

[Shiftkitty]

How certain are you of these memories you have? I ask because I have a lot of what look like past-life memories but are wild misinterpretations of memories from some of the most obscure sources.


Addendum: I'm not saying your memories are false, I just would like to know why you feel they are real. I do believe in reincarnation, though my approach sometimes suggests that I do not.

 

[RemainingSpirit]

Shiftkitty, you keep your skepticism. Many people do. I kept my skepticism about a couple of my own past lives until memories with specific and unique information were verified - then I finally, really, trusted what I was getting. But on the other hand I try as long as possible to give other people the benefit of the doubt, because I know what it's like to not be believed. Skepticism with an open mind - sounds strange, but it's possible!


Inanna, yes. All sorts of feelings come up when working on memory, or will come up when we are trying to pull events and feelings together. For me, feelings preceded memories by years. And, to give shiftkitty this point, I did jump to some conclusions along the way. So look at how your recall is coming up, and be patient with yourself, and how things are coming up. When a feeling arises, let it go, because the feelings can not only enhance memory, they can get in the way at times.


There was a point a few years ago when I saw a little girl approaching me on a hillside, and my heart dropped - she reminded me of my past life child. I thought to myself, now, if the two younger ones show up, I'm sunk. And on cue two smaller children, of the right age, were toddling up the hill after her.


Now, I know these were not the reincarnations of my children -I know who they are now. But something arranged a "coincidence" that triggered memory for me. If I had not already known about my children, and who they have become, I really would have thought I was seeing my children coming towards me. I had to get my tears under control before I scared the poor kids. I took a deep breath and let the upset go. But I'm glad to have had the moment, because it triggered some details I was able to verify shortly afterward.


None of this is easy! But it's ...something. :laugh:

 

[Shiftkitty]

Allow me to loan you my eyes for a moment, RemainingSpirit. I see an awful lot of detail and I ask about the source of this detail. A single dream? A series of dreams? Something else? Anything this detailed, especially since it's having such a profound impact on the current life, should be analyzed.


Inanna- I don't seek to tear your feelings or memories apart. Au contraire, I ask how you came by them, and how you are certain that they are of a past life.


I have a set of memories so vivid that I cannot shake them. They are of this life, and I am walking through a park with my two nieces. It is a very vivid memory and is not from a dream of any sort. This park is in Prescott, Arizona and it is right behind 307 Sonora Street, where we lived. The problem is that they never visited us when we lived in Prescott. They could never have gone to that park with me.


My father had a vivid memory of a picnic with his family while on the way to Oakland, California. The car they were in he identified as a 1928 Studebaker. The catch is that he was born in 1926 to a poor family that didn't get their first car until 1931, and they were in Iron Springs, Arizona and could never have afforded either the Studebaker or the trip to Oakland. Yet his recall of the event was picture perfect. We even drove to the site once, and allowing for the passage of time, it was spot-on. However, it was also a place that we had driven past a few times before, so the details of the place could have been subconcious.


I believe these are known as "false memories", and it is only that your memories are having such an impact on your current life that I ask if you have considered that they may be false, or is there something that tells you that they are real?

 

[usetawuz]

Shiftkitty, your comments on your experiences are interesting...could those "memories" have been alternative realities or "the path not taken"? I have had a few past life meditations in which I died in two different ways...invariably one positive and another in violence. I have not had strong memories of matters that have not occurred in this lifetime, although I do have lucid dreams which are more like memories than dreams...more detail, more emotion, more reality and all in places with which I am familiar...interestingly all my lucid dreams take place in the future.

 

[Shiftkitty]

Well, now there's an interesting thought! While I am familiar with the idea of what amounts to alternate realities, I had never considered crossing it with reincarnation. Definitely worth thinking about. (Begins rubbing her chin in a contemplative manner.)


Of course, there's the danger of people using such a thing to justify inaccuracies. "Well, yeah, I used the wrong phrase for the language, but in this alternate path, that's the phrase they used."


There's also the more insidious danger of shysters making money off of people who may need some serious help by convincing them that they are actually recalling an alternate reality instead of having trouble dealing with some trauma from this life. For example, a person I knew strictly through an online forum about ghosts and hauntings was paying some shyster "psychic" to help her deal with a "dark entity" that was haunting her apartment in the form of nightmares of a large man suddenly appearing in her room and holding her down on her bed until she passed out. Her friends finally convinced her to ditch this guy in favor of a therapist as they found evidence that she had been molested by her uncle as a child.


Still, it's an interesting proposition. I'll have to chew on this one!

 

[verbosewriter]

It's frustrating to think that there are people in one's soul group that would harm me, but there's a balance in life somehow and we must work through it. Life isn't always perfect.

 

[kemetic18]

Shiftkitty, your comments on your experiences are interesting...could those "memories" have been alternative realities or "the path not taken"?

This is really interesting. I hope I'm understanding right - I've spend a lot of time pondering about whether life is predestined or if we have free will (or at least the perception that we do). And if we have free will, is somewhere, out there, "what might have been"?


From my own experience, I have this distinct "memory" of being in a hospital giving birth to twin girls with a man who is not my husband at my side. In this memory, I saw my sister sitting in the waiting room and I clearly saw the calendar on the wall - March 2009.


Maybe it's a fantasy, but I cannot shake the feeling that its "the path not taken" in this lifetime. This memory takes place in another country and curiously, had I persued my original career path, my job would have taken me there.

 

[Shiftkitty]

I hear ya. I was driving home from the mall one day and could not shake the feeling that there was a baby girl in a car seat in the car with me. I could see her face in my mind. She was asleep, and I felt very protective of her on an instinctual level. However, I have no kids, nor do I want any. My husband and I feel there are too many thrown-away kids in shelters, and when we're set up a lot better, we plan to adopt.


Strange sesnation it was.

 

[Inanna]

I have conscious recall as well as dream's. He's also someone famous who left much indepth detail in his music about thing's only he and I would know.


I wake up most morning's in tear's when I recall event's from that life in the 1800's in particular...


And another life in ancient Egypt when I had his child on the "Q"-quiet, because I was Pharaos main wife at the time and it was discovered, and I went missing because I was be-headed.


It caused us-me and twin-soul,alot of pain because we were deeply in love, and I told him I'de meet him at a certain place that night.....and never showed up. My last thought's were of him worrying why did I disapear... And of our son.


It's still quite painful emotionally. But the most painful is of our life in the 1800's.

 

[Inanna]

I've also tried to post the entire story in this site in depth to help other's maybe......,but it was pulled.


Don't know why to this day.


Maybe because I am the Twin-Soulmate of someone extreamly famous....I dunno....


There was no reason for it not to be entered. Unless someone's


insecure.