Could it be a past life?

[Ross M]

I keep having vague memories or dreams but I'm someone else. I'm a young boy, probably in his teens and I just remember being outside dressed in fancy clothing with a sword on my hip. I remember a feeling of loneliness and longing and then someone calling me back inside. I turn around and there is this beautiful castle. I feel like I know what this boy (Me?) was thinking, knowing what he saw and what was happening but I'm worried it may just be my imagination. I feel at home on a horses back and I've always been drawn to things like swords, castles, etc but I'm worried this is all me wanting to make it into something more. If I try past life regression I only get a few visualisations of this before feeling a great fear and getting blocked off, as if my subconscious doesn't want me to see more. Does anyone have any advice or knowledge to help me figure this out?

 

[Ross M]

Hello. This very well could be past life memory. Myself, I do not regress myself by means of a regression session; I use meditation. I could help if you'd like.

If you could help I would appreciate it greatly

 

[Spirit Sword]

I would suggest not pushing it. If it is something you are not able to see, there is usually a good reason for it. Likely, you are not ready. It is interesting that you keep getting the same memory over and over again. Are you using the same recording/script every time?

 

[Ross M]

I would suggest not pushing it. If it is something you are not able to see, there is usually a good reason for it. Likely, you are not ready. It is interesting that you keep getting the same memory over and over again. Are you using the same recording/script every time?

No I'm not. I've spaced it out because I don't want to force a memory that I'm not ready to see but recently I can't help but feel even more drawn in and like I'm missing something but cannot figure out what. I figured I wasn't ready but hey, it was worth a try.

 

[Ross M]

"I keep having vague memories or dreams but I'm someone else. I'm a young boy, probablyin his teens and I just remember being outside dressed in fancy clothing with a sword on my hip."

You have clear definition of self here, so if you'd like to place yourself back in this time imagine this scene. While lying down in bed at night, envision this, replay it.

"I remember a feeling of loneliness and longing and then someone calling me back inside. I turn around and there is this beautiful castle. I feel like I know what this boy (Me?) was thinking, knowing what he saw and what was happening but I'm worried it may just be my imagination."

Add this to what you envision while lying down, all the emotions and visuals you see. Focus hard on what you see. I don't feel it would be your imagination if you keep seeing this over and over. Something imagined wouldn't have the emotions attached and keep you obsessing.

"I've always been drawn to things like swords, castles, etc but I'm worried this is all me wanting to make it into something more."

Sure something like this is possible, but try not to doubt yourself. Doubt can be your biggest enemy. Try to let go of this doubt and worry, and focus. Don't push it, as Spirit Sword said it will come as it is ready.

"Every time I try past life regression I only get a few visualisations of this before feeling fear and getting blocked off, as if my subconscious doesn't want me to see more."

You can't see more because you must focus on what you currently see. You may be being blocked because you're blocking a bad event that took place shortly after what you're seeing.

Thank you for all your help, I truly do appreciate it. I do have a feeling that something bad was to happen so I'll try not to push it but I can't help but to be drawn in more every day.

 

[fireflydancing]

Hi Ross M,
Welcome to the forum. Julius gave good advice. Just try it. Sometimes bad memories come up and it is up to you whether you can handle this or not.
Don’t be afraid if you imagine things or not. If you happen to get more images, just let them come to you. You don’t have to prove anything, not even to yourself. Write down everything that comes to you and you can even let this rest for some time or even years.
My memories came usually with people I met. People are my triggers.
My emotionally bad memories were censored in my memories. They were just blanks in the story or became like a panel of a comic (a drawing). A kind of defense against the cruelties. So I know what happened but with healthy detachement.
Good luck.

 

[There and back again]

There is always going to be some rough stuff when open the box as I like to call past lives as some here have learned the hard way through their experience. Take your time and do so one step at a time when you are ready.