This is new to me and may sound strange to everyone but this is my story so far,
On July 6th of this year my 4 year old son Aidan died of drowning due to asthma complications. The accident took place on July 1st and he was in a coma for 5 days before being pronounced brain dead. Needless to say my life has become a nightmare. I have been experiencing severe grief but I have also been recieving strange messages. When the Doctors told us the results of Aidan's MRI my only thought was that I need to have another baby. As my husband and I held our son for the last time I got a clear thought from Aidan that he wanted to start all over. The phrase "start all over" is significant because that was my son's catch phrase. As many 4 yr olds are Aidan was enjoying becoming a "big boy" he didn''t want help from anyone. If I would cut up his food he would refuse to eat it, dump it in the trash and announce that we had to start all over. If his big sister would turn on the tv for him he would scream "Ceci, now we have to start all over!" then turn off the tv and turn it back on himself.
As I held Aidan in my arms I got the feeling that he wanted to start all over because his body was broken and he needed a new one. After the funeral all I could do was lay in bed until a few days later when I awoke feeling absolutely joyful. I don''t mean a little less sad I mean more joyful than I had felt in years let alone since the accident. I clearly felt Aidan tell me that if I would become pregnant again he would return to be my child. That the accident was truely an accident and that Aidan was meant to be with us. About a week later I was daydreaming about having another child and I got a message from Aidan telling me to call the new baby Gabriel.
Since then I have discoverd Carol Bowman's book " Return form heaven" Before all this I swear I had only had a very vague understanding of reincarnation, I was kind of afraid of the idea because all I knew about it was the concept of karma.
The only person I've told is my husband who thankfully has the same feelings I do! We have both felt Aidan around us and get the feeling that he is just hanging out waiting to return to us. I haven't mentioned this to anyone else for fear that they'll think my grief has caused me to become delusional.
Now I read everything I can get my hands on regarding reincarnation. Anyway I swear I am a sane and rational person and I wanted to get some opinions from people. Thank you for reading this long rambling entry. I hope I can get some feed back.
Thanks, Wendy
On July 6th of this year my 4 year old son Aidan died of drowning due to asthma complications. The accident took place on July 1st and he was in a coma for 5 days before being pronounced brain dead. Needless to say my life has become a nightmare. I have been experiencing severe grief but I have also been recieving strange messages. When the Doctors told us the results of Aidan's MRI my only thought was that I need to have another baby. As my husband and I held our son for the last time I got a clear thought from Aidan that he wanted to start all over. The phrase "start all over" is significant because that was my son's catch phrase. As many 4 yr olds are Aidan was enjoying becoming a "big boy" he didn''t want help from anyone. If I would cut up his food he would refuse to eat it, dump it in the trash and announce that we had to start all over. If his big sister would turn on the tv for him he would scream "Ceci, now we have to start all over!" then turn off the tv and turn it back on himself.
As I held Aidan in my arms I got the feeling that he wanted to start all over because his body was broken and he needed a new one. After the funeral all I could do was lay in bed until a few days later when I awoke feeling absolutely joyful. I don''t mean a little less sad I mean more joyful than I had felt in years let alone since the accident. I clearly felt Aidan tell me that if I would become pregnant again he would return to be my child. That the accident was truely an accident and that Aidan was meant to be with us. About a week later I was daydreaming about having another child and I got a message from Aidan telling me to call the new baby Gabriel.
Since then I have discoverd Carol Bowman's book " Return form heaven" Before all this I swear I had only had a very vague understanding of reincarnation, I was kind of afraid of the idea because all I knew about it was the concept of karma.
The only person I've told is my husband who thankfully has the same feelings I do! We have both felt Aidan around us and get the feeling that he is just hanging out waiting to return to us. I haven't mentioned this to anyone else for fear that they'll think my grief has caused me to become delusional.
Now I read everything I can get my hands on regarding reincarnation. Anyway I swear I am a sane and rational person and I wanted to get some opinions from people. Thank you for reading this long rambling entry. I hope I can get some feed back.
Thanks, Wendy
