It feels like there’s a piece of me missing. A hole in my soul. I don’t feel I’m in the right place at the right time or even in the right culture, I feel so removed and lost, almost depressed.
I AM going to listen to you, Eva, because I have a similar problem, though in my case the geography is not so vast.
Please, go ahead !
Okay... I feel ever so exposed putting this out there, but like my guides always say “your key could be the key that unlocks someone else’s prison”. I’ll try make this short
When I was 15 (in this lifetime) I had a longing for SOMEONE. Back then I was still spiritually asleep. I didn’t know who they were, where they were and I always felt that physical love was rather lacklustre. This is a typical ‘old soul’ trait, as old souls know what the difference is between unconditional deep, soul love and a physical love we experience here in the physical.
Anyways, nothing I seemed to do, satisfied this longing for someone I KNEW was part of me. It got to the point where I hated expressing love because I couldn’t express it to SOMEONE I knew was part of me. I felt empty and my heart did not feel complete. I didn’t feel complete as a person. Like any adolescent girl, I had my fair share of ‘crushes’ too.
Years later when I was older (ha!

) I embarked on a new direction in life and moved to Australia. But the yearning I had for this SOMEONE never went away, and I thought I could run from my yearning and leave it behind in NZ, but instead it followed me. Everywhere I went, it followed me. I’ve lived in some of the most beautiful places in Australia, but yet I still yearned this SOMEONE.
I thought that moving to Australia would be the thing that made me feel complete but it didn’t because it was not where I had remembered them to be, nor was it where I remembered meeting them.
That was all when I was 19-20. Now I am 32 and I HAVE discovered where the yearning came from. That yearning, was ME looking for ME. My soul twin. The other half of ME. It took discovering my past life in Hitler’s Germany to find them. Sometimes all it takes is discovering a past life to find yourself and other half.
My other half is not in the physical but still in Spirit. For them, Nazi Germany was too much. But I feel COMPLETE now knowing who they are, where they are and why they are not here with me. I still yearn but not as much.
Physical time and distance is an illusion to soul twins. No amount of physical trauma can EVER seperate them, not even the most awful physical crimes of murder can separate them. It is your CONSCIOUS mind telling you that ‘they are so far away, I’ll never see them again, or I’ll never be able find myself again’. Your SUBCONSCIOUS mind is sitting there going ‘don’t be so ridiculous, they’re still here and with you’.
People say ‘oh you don’t choose anything in your life’ when in fact YOU DO. YOU were the one who chose to have a yearning in your life, YOU were the one who defined how thick or thin your veil was, YOU were one who chose whether to live together with your soul twin or away from them. We can’t always live or love who we want. YOU chose your own ‘lessons’ in THIS lifetime (be successful, rich or poor etc) but when you came here, all your best laid plans you made fell apart for some reason or another. Freewill is like that. It is the same with your yearning for another time and place.
What is my advice? ‘Go back to where you feel comfortable!’ I feel more comfortable in Prague, Czech Republic but I accept that while I feel most comfortable and whole there, I cannot be there all the time. What is the point in that for my soul of just going to same place and returning with the same people? That is why we yearn for places and people.
Travel!! Go see where you yearn to revisit!! We live in such a advanced world now where you can get from New York to Sydney in under 24 hours! Go travel!! Go where YOU want to go! If you want to go to Egypt, Argentina, Spain, Israel, Russia, Ukraine or the UK then go!
Oy, I just realised this is SUPER long and I probably was off the point, but if you’re still reading I’m impressed
Eva x